Starting over after 9 months 2 days of sobriety

Blessings Reboot Nation Folks,

I am saddened that after so many months of not giving into pornography and masturbation, I fell today.

I have been struggling with stress on various levels and I have been struggling to say no to looking at it and today was the culmination of months of stress and struggles.

I am going to Celebrate Recovery tonight and plan to admit my failure of giving into the forbidden fruit.

Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I am starting over.



Hey Mark

9 months is awesome and you've definitely broken the habit, so be thankful for that effort you've put into yourself. Instead of focusing on solely on trying to "beat porn again" after this slip-up, I would focus mostly on trying to fix the things that have been pulling you down recently. And importantly, to reinvest into constructive things in your life, whatever they may be.

That being said, life gets hard and stressful and we all instinctively seek pleasure and respite particularly during those times. So maybe also consider doing something to reward yourself for dealing with life recently. Something that you'll be like "Hell yeah I haven't done that in ages" and feel great afterwards.

We're all rooting for you here so keep rooting for yourself man :)
Hi Mark,

Don't be too hard on yourself! Falling once after 9 months is like someone trying to lose weight eating clean for 9 months, then giving in one night and eating a pepperoni pizza with a bottle of coke for dinner...they aren't going to be morbidly obese again the next morning! One bad day can't erase 9 months of progress! Just get back up and keep going. In the last 9 months you have reduced your porn usage by 99.999%, why not celebrate that instead of focus on the 0.001% of failure?


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You've put in a lot of heavy lifting and you should be proud of yourself. Like others are saying, one relapse after 9 months won't undo much progress. However, keep in mind that you've reactivated the neural pathways in your brain that are the cause of your addiction that were long-dormant. It will be easier and more tempting now to keep relapsing and you must resist the urges or your entire 9 months of sobriety will be for nothing in the long-term. Stay strong and remember everything that's gotten you this far.
Hi guys,
It's been forever since I've been on here. I can't focus on the past to much. I will say that the last 2 weeks have been hard with sexual addiction. Almost daily, I have been looking at pornography and giving into masturbation. I feel so defeated.

On top of this I am trying to become a better man. The man God wants me to be. My wife and daughters are distant. I want to feel like I belong in this family but it has been hard to spend time with them. We are also dealing with Covid-19 in our house. Both daughter's have it.

Please, please keep me in prayer. The flesh is weak but the Spirit is strong.

Love you all. Thank you for your love, care and encouragement.
Day 1
January 12th, 2022
Good morning,
I gave in yesterday to pornography and masturbation. I am going to start posting on here everyday. Please keep me in prayer.


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I would suggest not fighting this addiction as a spiritual battle. If you have a serious illness, you can pray but also go to the hospital and use some science. Shame just feeds addiction and more dopamine hits. Can I suggest reading this, a "hospital" for your mind: Good luck, I pray for you. I can tell you, I am enjoying being around my family so much more now that I've quit. Your whole family will notice the new you.

PS I wouldn't call porn a fruit, fruit has vitamins -- e.g. some advantages.
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Day 2
January 13, 2022
First I want to say thank you to the guys that wrote me about my situation. Carl Smith and Fappy. I did read the flying eagle method.
So I didn't fall yesterday. I had thoughts to look at pornography and fap but didn't.
Thank you for the encouragement and prayers.