Fully recovered in 200 days!

casanova

Member
Hi everyone,

I'm 35 y.o. and went from zero libido to a real woman with PIED and no morning woods or random erections, back to be as horny as I was when teenager. In 'only' 200 days.

I hope my story might help and inspire some of you.

[WARNING TRIGGER LANGUAGE]

I was very disciplined on my journey and informed myself as well as possible every day.
It was probably the 200 most healthy days of my adult life. Lots of sports (I mean a LOT), healthy food, consistent sleep, no electronics one hour before sleeping, reduced phone time, supplements, enough outdoor time every day, meditation etc.

I understand this process in two phases: reboot, and rewire.

On the first 71 days I had no M, no O, nothing. It was the worst phase. Dead penis, mood swings, no dreams, almost no MW etc. But it was very important, that was the real reboot. Then I had successful sex with O, which felt like resetting my counter. It led me to another long flatline. It was the first attempt to rewire with a real woman but seems like my brain wasn't ready yet. With patience, I continued the journey, and after another 60 to 70 days I started to have successful sex (firstly without O and later with O) and feel healed.

Now I feel like I've felt during my 20's. Horny, charming, healthy, and able to perform as many times I want - any time, with any woman.

You can read my very detailed journal here: https://forum.rebootnation.org/index.php?threads/20169/

Here a resume:

Day 0: Christmas, 3 times PMO on that day already with a 50% erection. Last time I've watched porn.
Days 1 to 7: increasing productivity, zero libido;
Days 8 to 10: first heavy flatline, weakness, zero libido, feeling tired etc;
Day 11 to 25: increasing productivity, still zero libido, but were good days; on the day 13 i had blue balls, it hurt hard;
Day 26: for the first time in months I got an erection only by fantasizing during a shower - no touching, only thoughts. Felt like an improvement;
Day 27 to 59: endless flatline. Dead penis, sometimes it looked like my penis would hide inside of me if he could, looked like a mini worm, very scary;
Day 60: still no morning wood, but for the first time in years I've felt a healthy attraction for my wife. She took a shower and came out naked; I admired her body as for a long time I didn't.
Day 61 to 63: slowly got some progress; very motivated for sports as well, lifting hard weights and feeling very 'manly' and self-confident.
Day 66: almost had a wet dream. I woke up very horny, it felt like I could have sex with any woman on earth. It felt awesome, it's how I used to feel before losing my libido to porn.
Day 67 to 70: more frequent sex thoughts, feeling hornier in general. Getting erections easily while on the sofa watching tv shows with my wife.
Day 71: first sex with my wife since my reboot and it was awesome! I was extremely horny and relaxed, we had great foreplay and at least 20 mins sex. Orgasm was one of the best of my life!
Day 72: I woke up with strong morning wood, and thought I was cured. But I was wrong...
Day 73 to 95: flatline! No libido, no real attraction or will to nothing sex related.. feeling like day 1.
Day 96: we were on the sofa, I was softly touching myself, got a 70% erection. She gave me a bj, and I O'ed still with a half erection. Wasn't good. One hour later I had another erection stronger though, but did nothing with it.
Day 97 to 100: flatline.. here I was getting impatient and was every day slowly touching myself, to see if there was some improvement..
Day 101: On this day for the first time in my journey I fapped two times (no porn, only fantasy/thoughts).
Day 102 - 112: flatline. I have some 50% morning wood and some small libido in the early morning. But during the day no sex thoughts and don't find any woman attractive.
Day 112 - 175: lots of ups and downs, even some depression. Often zero libido, sometimes MW sometimes not..
Day 176: sucessful sex without O! It was crucial to don't O here. Sex was amazing.
Day 177 - 183: getting better. Feeling charged after the sex without O.
Day 184: Lots of succesful sex, for hours, even anal sex - rock hard erection. By the very end I allowed myself to O.
Day 185-199: Despite the O, there was no flatline. MW everyday, feeling recovered already.
Day 200: Again sex for hours, with O. At some point I lost my erection, but it's normal when having much sex in the same night. Here I consider myself recovered.
Bonus:
Day 202: Had succesful sex again, was super horny.
Here I stop counting/journaling. But today is day 244 and in the last weeks I had sex many times, it's just getting better and better. I'm horny all the time, and there are not even reminiscences of flatlines. Last Saturday was crazy, I O'ed four times (the girl O'ed more than me though). I can have sex in following days without any problem, like a teenager. Couldn't be happier!

My best tips to anyone in this journey:

If you ask me my 2 most important learnings/tips that can help anyone here, no matter the stage of your journey:

1. Before feeling healed, you'll have consistent MW 4-7 times per week, and before that you'll have consistent vivid dreams first. So your first aim should be conquering vivid dreams. The healing in the brain happens during your sleep, especially when you dream. Respect your nights as the most important time during this journey: turn off your phone two hours before sleep, and within days you'll feel an improvement on your dreams. That's the path that will lead you to conquer consistent MW, and rewire successfully later on.

2. Exercise hard, every day. That's the most effective thing you can do with your motivation to wake up your balls and put them to work. I recommend at least 200x pushups per day, and sprint runs (at least 4x 20 seconds each sprint). Jump squats are great, weightlifting too, but for me, sprints were game changer. When I sprint and sleep well, MW on next day is a sure thing.


And that's it. Thanks a lot to everyone in this community, it saved my life. Special thanks to @otanerferguson , and to everyone who commented on my journal.
 
I'm turning 35 in November and my current streak is 16 days and going strong. So, your story is very encouraging to me! I don't have PIED but definitely have killed libido (sex feels more like a chore than something that's enjoyable), so I hope to see a resurgence soon. I have been using porn regularly since I was 13 (actually about 6 weeks before my 13th birthday), so I feel like for my entire adult life I have never really known my true self, only myself squashed down and repressed by porn. I'm looking forward to seeing that change, and discovering who I really am without this anchor weighing me down.
 
Thanks for sharing your journey and congratulations with the successful reboot. I’m on day 95 and has went through the same ups and down. Strong morning wood most of the time but not always. I assumed since I was addicted to porn for a long time that its going to be a process. I know that with time I will get passed PIED.
 
Do you think the two times you fapped help your recovery or set you back?

I am almost 6 month with nofap or P. I was wounding if it some gentle fapping without P would help stimulate my sex drive.
 

casanova

Member
Do you think the two times you fapped help your recovery or set you back?

I am almost 6 month with nofap or P. I was wounding if it some gentle fapping without P would help stimulate my sex drive.
In my opinion M (without P) doesn't set you back; orgasm does. Especially after the day 100 during my journey I did M a couple of times, but without O. It helped to 'recharge' my balls faster, if that makes any sense. I feel that it helped me, but I don't recommend it to anyone, unless you do kegels everyday for at least six months, as I did. Without wanting to sound arrogant, but as a casanova I am, for over a decade, kegels is part of my life. I care very much for sexual performance, and kegels is a must. So I can M without O. But one mistake, one O, and you can ruin the whole streak. Better to don't play with that unless you really know what you're doing.

To stimulate my sex drive, I had some nuru massages and also visited escorts. I did it to force my rewire and it helped immensely. I think that you're done with your reboot already, you should focus on your rewire to real woman now. For that, I recommend overloads of sports everyday, maybe some suplements like Maca, Catuaba, Tribulus, Ginseng etc. Check your vitamin D and Zinc levels too. Make sure to avoid electronics two hours before sleep. Doing it all, naturally you'll start to have vivid dreams again. And after some weeks having vivid dreams, you'll naturally start to feel recharged and attracted to woman, what can facilitate the rewire part of the process. In any case, don't hurry with O. If you can stay another 2 or 3 months complete without O, but following these advices (sports, good sleep, etc) I'm sure that you'll feel recharged and naturally hornier towards woman. Wish you success!
 
That is some great advice, thank you!
The nuru massage is exactly what I need and I will look in to booking some. I will read up on kegal, its not something that I am familiar with. I am already doing lots of exercise and taking lots of supliments. I will have a look at what I am already taking and might add a few more that you recommend. Cheers bud.
 

otanerferguson

Active Member
Hey @casanova

You wouldn't believe how happy it makes me that you've written your success story already. Given how disciplined you have been, I am happy that you have been rewarded with amazing progress. It's great that you can move past this weird episode in human history and continue living life to the fullest. I wish you reconnect more with your wife and enjoy more of what life has to offer in all fronts. Stay away from overstimulation of any kind and continue growing. I am glad that this has been the healthiest time of your life. You might as well keep it that way. Thank you for the great exchanges that we had, they are definitely a huge part of my recovery too.

All my good vibes for you,

Hugo
 

PKCowned

Member
Bro!!! So happy for you. Our journeys have been remarkably similar, and I’ve been following your journey for the entire year. Congrats, but keep your mind focused, wouldn’t want to see you slip up now that you have passed into the beyond. I myself will be writing a final success story thread here soon.
Again, congrats!
 

casanova

Member
Hi guys, thanks a lot for the words!

Yesterday by the way I had another successful night of sex with another woman. Someone I know for years, and finally the stars aligned and thanks to the casanova's charm, we could share an intimate moment for the first time. One of the best sex I've ever had. We had sex multiple times, per hours. I was rock hard all the time, and curiously I haven't O not even once. The girl did everything she could to make me O, and I had an endless erection and complete control. I don't wanted to O, the sex was extremely enjoyable, I don't wanted to end it. At some point the lady was exhausted, she took a cold shower and went to sleep. The fact I haven't O'ed hasn't bothered me at all. I'm still enjoying extremely the fact I can perform so well again in bed and have mindblowing sex. The connection and the female pleasure is my ultimate joy and goal - feels like that after the 200 days journey, for me to O is not even important anymore.

A long night of sex, and today I had many random erections and am feeling super horny and charged. Can't wait to have sex again. Seems like life will get more and more wild in this sense from now on. I don't remember the last time I've felt so sexual.
 

Aussie_85

Active Member
First of all man congrats, well deserved!

dont stress on not being able to O. Could be a multitude of things from your brain still re-wiring or subconscious pressure on yourself to O “this is weird why can’t I O” type thing.

Also if you do O and it feels weak, don’t let it worry you. After long streaks I’ve had orgasms that literally feel like I’m urinating, no pleasurable feeling at all…very strange.

keep going strong dude and congrats again!
 

casanova

Member
First of all man congrats, well deserved!

dont stress on not being able to O. Could be a multitude of things from your brain still re-wiring or subconscious pressure on yourself to O “this is weird why can’t I O” type thing.

Also if you do O and it feels weak, don’t let it worry you. After long streaks I’ve had orgasms that literally feel like I’m urinating, no pleasurable feeling at all…very strange.

keep going strong dude and congrats again!
Thanks for your words, but just to clarify: it's not that I'm not able to O; it's more that during the journey I've learnt how powerful it is to stay 'charged', and I don't feel like emptying myself so easily.

If you read my journal, I've had many successful sexual sessions lately, most of them with O. And after a short refractory period I could perform again, and was feeling great the day after. But still, nothing compares with having a long sexual session and still not O'ing. You can perform all night long and on the day after you're feeling even stronger and full of will to live, work or do whatever you want.

I appreciate your message, but wanted to clarify that. I don't feel like my brain is still re-wirning, or I'm putting pressure on myself. I'm fully recovered, and feel that now I have an even better and more authentic relationship with my sexuality than before this journey. It's only that. :)
 

TheSpaniard

Member
Thank you for sharing your advices. I will definitely take more care about my sleep time and will continue with my goal to achieve a more active and healthy lifestyle.
 

Aussie_85

Active Member
Ok man cool.
I can only dream of being 100% recovered at day 200. I went 94 days hardmode and felt like shit the entire time.
 

Iamnotacrook

New Member
New to the forums after creeping for a while. Thank you for the detailed journey and happy for you! I’m only on day 10 but it’s amazing how productive you become when you’re not obsessing over your dick.
 

casanova

Member
Hi guys, I had successful sex with another woman yesterday. This time I wasn't holding O, and wanted to O as often as possible.
We had sex two times during the night, and it felt awesome. Each time lasted at least 40 minutes of intercourse, I had total control. The refractory period lasted around 20 minutes only. Then we slept and today at the morning we had sex once again. I had 3 orgasms in total, and am already having random erections, hours later. Couldn't be happier with my sexuality. The heal is real!
 
Hy Casanova,

Great log, well done on the reboot. I'm going though one myself at the moment, after a few weeks of flatline (About 5-6 weeks) my libidio came back with a vengeance and luckily for my new real partner and I have a great few days of sex, however about a week or so later my arousal for her diminished and I couldn't get it up for her, even though I was super horny.

Good that my libidio is now officially back, however I am get lots of sex thoughts revolving all around P or Escorts and other past experiences with them, I've has 2 wet dreams this week about. I try to divert my attention elsewhere when I have these thoughts, but in bed last night was torture I was so horny with an overactive mind

What do you think of this? Am I in the rewiring stage? I'm going to spend this weekend with my partner so I am hoping my horniness will come back for her.

I am doing a similar reboot as you, exercise everyday, quality sleep, food, supplements, meditation, Qi Gong, you name it.

 

casanova

Member
Hy Casanova,

Great log, well done on the reboot. I'm going though one myself at the moment, after a few weeks of flatline (About 5-6 weeks) my libidio came back with a vengeance and luckily for my new real partner and I have a great few days of sex, however about a week or so later my arousal for her diminished and I couldn't get it up for her, even though I was super horny.

Good that my libidio is now officially back, however I am get lots of sex thoughts revolving all around P or Escorts and other past experiences with them, I've has 2 wet dreams this week about. I try to divert my attention elsewhere when I have these thoughts, but in bed last night was torture I was so horny with an overactive mind

What do you think of this? Am I in the rewiring stage? I'm going to spend this weekend with my partner so I am hoping my horniness will come back for her.

I am doing a similar reboot as you, exercise everyday, quality sleep, food, supplements, meditation, Qi Gong, you name it.

Are you having often vivid dreams?
 
Yes, I remember in the flatline I had none. In this past week I've had 2 wet dream, and over the last week I've woke up remembering a few vivid dream
 

canguro

Active Member
Hey casanova, what's this thing about kegels? I just read an article about it, but the only thing I can see is that it's for (preventing) incontinence. Why are people here talking about this so often? Thanks in advance.
 
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