You're awesome!! I like the weekly updates, ill do the same, I'm copying youuuuuThis week I tried to answer the question 'can I have an erection without porn?' and the answer is yes. That is a big win, because it was not true before. The stimulus to natural touch is back. I guess, this will improve further over time. I also tried to expose myself to some triggers to look at what I am thinking and how I am responding. I notice that I am a lot more interested now in the interaction of people even when watching movies - like how people kiss, what are they doing with their hands, eyes etc. Mind you, these things still tempt me, but I still wanted to approach it with mindfulness, a couple of times, to see what happens. There was risk in it, but I was able to observe myself to some extent neutrally and make mental notes. Morning wood has been regular and associated erections hard. I have had two episodes of nightfall, probably because all the experimentation I did remained somewhere, subconsciously, in my mind. Erections don't recede easily now, but they are still harder if I have an external stimulus like fantasy or image I saw earlier - probably meaning there is still some scope to recover. I will experiment more but after the holiday season. It is time to let the bells ring meanwhile.
On the work front, I am still taking baby steps towards my goals. But I can see things moving now. This is a nice rush for me. I always use to think I am a procrastinator, instead I was mainly mind numbed by PMO. There is more want and desire to do stuff now. There is more motivation for sure. My gym and yoga routine is solid and I really enjoy it. I focus on healthy eating and genuine conversations with coworkers. Also, I will be updating once a week now on this forum to keep myself disciplined. I feel good, but I do see room to improve on this journey. This continues.