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vidvan13

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  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? some pictures on some website
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? closed the website.
  • What am I grateful for today? going out in the park and reading Daring Greatly
  • Day counter! DAY 29
 
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Vidvan, I just read through your whole livejournal, really good and inspiring stuff. You're an excellent writer. Keep it up!
 
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Not a Rabbi said:
Vidvan, I just read through your whole livejournal, really good and inspiring stuff. You're an excellent writer. Keep it up!
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I really appreciate you reading and validating it. Though anonymous, it makes me feel I am not alone. Thank you my friend for being there for me and understanding.
 
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  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? working hard on my project
  • Day counter! DAY 30
 
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SexualHealing said:
Look who's celebrating 30 days 🥳💣💥 not sure if you're into sweets but here you go anyway 🎂🍦🍩🍪🍬🍫🍭🍰🧁 congratulations, wishing you many more 30 days!
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you are one day ahead of me and I am going to follow in your steps :) Thanks for all the support and encouragement! I have a sweet tooth, but I keep away from it. I am going to treat myself with fresh watermelons today.
 
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vidvan13

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  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? lonely Friday
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? read a book and going to bed early
  • What am I grateful for today? watching the sunset in the park.
  • Day counter! DAY 32
For some reason I had a wet dream last night. Can't remember what it was.
 
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vidvan13 said:
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? lonely Friday
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? read a book and going to bed early
  • What am I grateful for today? watching the sunset in the park.
  • Day counter! DAY 32
For some reason I had a wet dream last night. Can't remember what it was.
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On the lonely part.. lately I've been looking at loneliness as a way to evaluate my relationship with myself, my relationships with others. I'm finding out that I need to keep my adventurous side alive. Only I can fulfill that part in me. And when it comes to my relationships with others, I'm realizing that I want to make new friends/connections with people. My job has me doing everything virtual and because of the pandemic I feel like I lost that face to face human interaction piece. Just sitting and feeling the loneliness got me to these conclusions. Perhaps loneliness is not a bad thing, it's just trying to tell us something about ourselves and how we can better take of ourselves. Wishing you clarity, understanding and an "ah ha" moment in this area of your life. Congrats on day 32 - woo-hoo!
 
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On the lonely part.. lately I've been looking at loneliness as a way to evaluate my relationship with myself, my relationships with others. I'm finding out that I need to keep my adventurous side alive. Only I can fulfill that part in me. And when it comes to my relationships with others, I'm realizing that I want to make new friends/connections with people. My job has me doing everything virtual and because of the pandemic I feel like I lost that face to face human interaction piece. Just sitting and feeling the loneliness got me to these conclusions. Perhaps loneliness is not a bad thing, it's just trying to tell us something about ourselves and how we can better take of ourselves. Wishing you clarity, understanding and an "ah ha" moment in this area of your life. Congrats on day 32 - woo-hoo!
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I so agree with you. Lately, Whenever I have a thought or motivation I have started to pose the question 'what is my authentic intention'? And this has helped me a lot to be at least honest with my feelings and often time course correct myself. I also evaluated loneliness yesterday and concluded the same thing - it is the urge to connect. In fact, I just wish to listen to people, mainly. I have started to see how much empty we are without each other. Our confidence in ourselves is going to be empty if it is not backed by real connections, and realizing the vulnerability of them. I am glad to be reading some really good books on these issues these days - 'daring greatly' is one of them.

And really grateful for your input and constant support. You are awesome! I wish you all the joy. Also, the watermelons were delicious! :)
 
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vidvan13

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  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? some video
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? evaluated my intention and skipped the trigger.
  • What am I grateful for today? great outdoors in the park
  • Day counter! DAY 33
 
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  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers?
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? reading a good book and working out
  • Day counter! DAY 34
 
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I so agree with you. Lately, Whenever I have a thought or motivation I have started to pose the question 'what is my authentic intention'? And this has helped me a lot to be at least honest with my feelings and often time course correct myself. I also evaluated loneliness yesterday and concluded the same thing - it is the urge to connect. In fact, I just wish to listen to people, mainly. I have started to see how much empty we are without each other. Our confidence in ourselves is going to be empty if it is not backed by real connections, and realizing the vulnerability of them. I am glad to be reading some really good books on these issues these days - 'daring greatly' is one of them.

And really grateful for your input and constant support. You are awesome! I wish you all the joy. Also, the watermelons were delicious! :)
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Awesome feedback, thanks for sharing. And you welcome! You're my rebootnation buddy!!! 🎁🎊🎉🎈🍉

Also, it's all about the watermelon! That's all i ate when i had covid. Lol. It's pretty powerful!
 
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vidvan13

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  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? Some cheap ass show on Netflix
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? I stopped for a moment, thought about my intentions, down voted the show, removed it from my list.
  • What am I grateful for today? daring greatly
  • Day counter! DAY 35
 
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vidvan13 said:
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? Some cheap ass show on Netflix
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? I stopped for a moment, thought about my intentions, down voted the show, removed it from my list.
  • What am I grateful for today? daring greatly
  • Day counter! DAY 35
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Lol @ cheap ass show on Netflix
 
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