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vidvan13

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To perfectly follow in my footsteps, you must have πŸ‰πŸ‰πŸ‰πŸ‰ after every 30 day milestone. Many people stop following me because they are not consistent with their watermelon eating. Just a heads up.
hummm. Now i have to find a reliable monthly source of fresh watermelons. : P
 

vidvan13

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How exciting!!!!!! Have fun tomorrow πŸ™…πŸ™†
I have been a little dis-interested in my work for some time now. Yesterday my boss called me and said he wanted to talk to me. I was sure he was going to fire me and, surprisingly, I was relieved that I can now move on to something I am more interested in. Today morning he sat down with me and promoted me for my good work. But more importantly, he changed my responsibilities to things I am interested in. Life is so interesting. And I am glad I am present in the moment to enjoy it and not escape. I am going to make the best out of this!
 

vidvan13

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Today was a good day. I pondered about vulnerability being perceived as weakness. Here is a summary of what I read.
 

vidvan13

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Today is day 45 for me, half way through my initial goal of 90 days. However, I am taking the advice of S, and declare every 30 days as watermelon day. My next watermelon day will be Nov 13, a day after I have achieved 60.
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? for the new opportunity
  • Day counter! DAY 45
 

SexualHealing

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I have been a little dis-interested in my work for some time now. Yesterday my boss called me and said he wanted to talk to me. I was sure he was going to fire me and, surprisingly, I was relieved that I can now move on to something I am more interested in. Today morning he sat down with me and promoted me for my good work. But more importantly, he changed my responsibilities to things I am interested in. Life is so interesting. And I am glad I am present in the moment to enjoy it and not escape. I am going to make the best out of this!
Yessssssss!! I just love the sequence of events, from being disinterested to your boss calling you in and then bammmmm... doing something thats sparks your interest. I think your boss intuitively knew what was going on with you.
 

SexualHealing

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Today is day 45 for me, half way through my initial goal of 90 days. However, I am taking the advice of S, and declare every 30 days as watermelon day. My next watermelon day will be Nov 13, a day after I have achieved 60.
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? for the new opportunity
  • Day counter! DAY 45
Hahahaha πŸ‰πŸ‰πŸ‰πŸ‰πŸ‰ it's all about the watermelon!!!
 

vidvan13

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Today I felt like eating Indian food, so I found a restaurant in my area, made an effort to go there, and overate my meal :p Later in the evening I read daring greatly further and summarized the importance of asking for support (https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/5616.html). This is a really good book. Will all that food I ate, I am going to call it an early day.
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? sumptuous meal
  • Day counter! DAY 47
 

vidvan13

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Today as I embark on my new role, I feel a lot of gratitude towards everybody who has helped me. I read about choosing courage over success as our value and confronting shame. The same principles are letting me fight the PMO habit as well. https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/5751.html

  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? yoga class
  • Day counter! DAY 48
 

SexualHealing

Active Member
Today I felt like eating Indian food, so I found a restaurant in my area, made an effort to go there, and overate my meal :p Later in the evening I read daring greatly further and summarized the importance of asking for support (https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/5616.html). This is a really good book. Will all that food I ate, I am going to call it an early day.
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? sumptuous meal
  • Day counter! DAY 47
Sounds like an awesome day! Can't go wrong with Indian food.
 

SexualHealing

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Today was another good day for me. Today's summary concentrated on 'what is shame?' https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/5915.html
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? good workout
  • Day counter! DAY
I read your post yesterday and just now, I wanted some entertainment in my life and went for my fav podcast and to my surpriseeeeeee, check out what I'm listening too!!! https://www.thisamericanlife.org/749/my-bad
 
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vidvan13

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I edited the post above because the first link I sent wasn't working.
Hey, welcome back! Actually if you want the full experience you should read the book 'daring greatly' which is what I have been summarizing as I read it. One of the best books I have read in a very long time.
 

vidvan13

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Reading Brene Brown's 'daring greatly' is one of the most profound experiences I have had lately. I have been summarizing the book in my journal. Today I read about how Empathy and connection can heal us all of our shame. I feel gratitude toward everybody who has stood by me here and supported me. thank you! https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/6266.html

I also completes a half century today! :)
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? great day at work
  • Day counter! DAY 50
 

SexualHealing

Active Member
Reading Brene Brown's 'daring greatly' is one of the most profound experiences I have had lately. I have been summarizing the book in my journal. Today I read about how Empathy and connection can heal us all of our shame. I feel gratitude toward everybody who has stood by me here and supported me. thank you! https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/6266.html

I also completes a half century today! :)
  • Did I use porn today? NO
  • What were my triggers? none
  • How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
  • What am I grateful for today? great day at work
  • Day counter! DAY 50
It's your bday today!!!!???????? O wait never mind, lol πŸ˜† for some reason I thought it was your bday and you turn 50 years old today but it's the reboot nation half century you're talking about! Sweet! Sounds like another wonderful day in paradise for you!
 
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