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Squidward81

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Day 3
Morning started off rough. I went in Instagram, which led to Twitter and a couple of pictures in, I thought..."I don't want to do this!" I'm not counting it...I didn't even get hard yet. I guess I sorta just go on autopilot. Which make me think...I do that a few times and then I go full PMO. So if I can keep myself from this 'little' autopilot moments, I think I can make it further...or at least it won't be as hard. I'm gonna try to check in tonight!

Thanks for all the support and sharing.
 
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Ziggy116

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Squidward81 said:
Day 3
Morning started off rough. I went in Instagram, which led to Twitter and a couple of pictures in, I thought..."I don't want to do this!" I'm not counting it...I didn't even get hard yet. I guess I sorta just go on autopilot. Which make me think...I do that a few times and then I go full PMO. So if I can keep myself from this 'little' autopilot moments, I think I can make it further...or at least it won't be as hard. I'm gonna try to check in tonight!

Thanks for all the support and sharing.
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Good for you... You can do it... When I first started my reboot I would find myself almost logging into porn... Like it was automatic... Definitely a habit... But luckily I never have.... Just stay strong and you will do great... There are better days to come.
 
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Squidward81 said:
Day 3
Morning started off rough. I went in Instagram, which led to Twitter and a couple of pictures in, I thought..."I don't want to do this!" I'm not counting it...I didn't even get hard yet. I guess I sorta just go on autopilot. Which make me think...I do that a few times and then I go full PMO. So if I can keep myself from this 'little' autopilot moments, I think I can make it further...or at least it won't be as hard. I'm gonna try to check in tonight!

Thanks for all the support and sharing.
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Good job on saying, 'No!' Squidward! Disrupting and interupting your regular habit-patterns is what habit-change is all about!

What you say about autopilot is a key to your overcoming this. This is what we may call 'mindlessness'- so what is the answer? The opposite: mindfulness.

Research mindfulness in relation to addiction in general, and in relation to sex-(or porn) addiction in particular.
 
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JerryTX

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Way to stop it Squidward! I really have to watch social media and for me it was best to remove Twitter. I really removed some other content on IG but it comes up anyway and I have to be "mindful" not to keep clicking the P subs! Keep up to work to build consistency & perseverance!
 
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Squidward81

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Thanks guys.

I was feeling pretty confident this morning but now I'm fully looking for opportunities to act out. Gonna lie down now after fully get closer to porn. It's gonna be a tougher day than I thought.
 
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Squidward81

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Day 4
I kept myself pretty busy today but as soon as I got a couple of seconds alone, my mind went straight to porn. I'm pretty tired of dealing with that.

My wife is gonna be busy for the next few hours so I gotta be smart. No insta, definitely no Twitter, and maybe even better, something that takes my mind of the urges.

Trying my best to not hate myself & situation. Holding on to hope.
 
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Ziggy116

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Squidward81 said:
Day 4
I kept myself pretty busy today but as soon as I got a couple of seconds alone, my mind went straight to porn. I'm pretty tired of dealing with that.

My wife is gonna be busy for the next few hours so I gotta be smart. No insta, definitely no Twitter, and maybe even better, something that takes my mind of the urges.

Trying my best to not hate myself & situation. Holding on to hope.
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Never hate yourself... And good for you keeping busy...I find that alone time can be a struggle...I am completely off any kind of social media and have been since day one... Don't miss it anyway... Hang in there bud
 
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Squidward81

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6 days

I'm shocked that it's been 6 days but there have been a few peeks almost everyday. But I turn away pretty quickly and 50% of the time choose this site instead of even peeking.

Tonight the kids are busy having a sleep over, my wife is doing an online call and I'm sorta left to my own struggles.

I am fighting porn because I don't want to be controlled by anything.

I am fighting porn because it has lied to me for years about real sex looks & feels like.

I am fighting porn because I want to honestly tell my kids about the dangers and how hard I worked to be free of it...and that I'm free from it.

I am fighting porn because my wife deserves a husband who is sexually and emotional there for her.
 
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Squidward81

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Day 1

Tired of the cycle of fighting and relapse. This round I'm trying out a different strategy but I'm hoping it shows some growth. Also want to read the books everyone keeps talking about.

Here's to today.
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Squidward81 said:
Day 1

Tired of the cycle of fighting and relapse. This round I'm trying out a different strategy but I'm hoping it shows some growth. Also want to read the books everyone keeps talking about.

Here's to today.
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We all have the ability to quit this. What we need is consistency in tweaking things until we figure out what works for us. Each one's struggle is personal. We need to find what works for our particular life. I like to start by revising the mistakes from the past and trying to avoid them. Also finding a way to dismiss (not fight) the urges is also key, maybe the most important for short them when you can make a wrong step and fail.
 
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Squidward81

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Escapeandnevercomeback said:
We all have the ability to quit this. What we need is consistency in tweaking things until we figure out what works for us. Each one's struggle is personal. We need to find what works for our particular life. I like to start by revising the mistakes from the past and trying to avoid them. Also finding a way to dismiss (not fight) the urges is also key, maybe the most important for short them when you can make a wrong step and fail.
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I really appreciate that idea of dismiss, not fight urges. I'm gonna work on that today. Thanks man
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Squidward81 said:
I really appreciate that idea of dismiss, not fight urges. I'm gonna work on that today. Thanks man
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Fighting the urges only make them linger longer and grow and it makes you irritated and frustrated with the urges. What we need to do is ignore the urges, like someone who passes by, we take a look at him but then we mind our business, we don't need to keep starring. I know it sounds easier said than done when massive urges start but we need to make an effort to learn how to do this.
 
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Squidward81

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Day 10

I want to PMO so badly!

I'm going to keep myself busy and I'm trying to just dismiss the urges, or ride the waves but I'm sort of getting really ansty.

Believing tomorrow will be better.
 
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3rdJohn

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Squidward,

hang on. Resist. go for a fast walk. Do some push-ups, or planks, or sit ups. throw some Cold water on your face. Hug someone you love. Dont believe the lie that you need this. you may want it at the moment, but really, isn’t what you really want is to be free of this?

The cravings are exactly what to expect. The cravings are really your brain screaming “where’s that delicious dopamine high that I used to get everyday??? Give it to me NOW” You need to tell your brain, ‘shut up, you’re being rewired’.
And be willing to take the pain. It hurts like hell, but the pain is temporary.

much love and respect to you,

john
 
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Squidward81

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Day 11

So, yesterday was rough. I peeked at things but I'm not counting it cause it was a complete fight the whole time.

Woke up, did a mini workout, and then scheduled out my day. Gonna do my best to keep to it.

Thanks for the encouragement guys. I fully needed it.
 
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