Reboot Journal

Hi, Reboot Nation!
I am 27, i have been using porn since 15. What started out as curiosity has turned into a issue for me. Which is why i am here, i was not planning on making a journal i just wanted to browse in the background reading about others stories but i figured why not.
 
Day 3
Usually day 2 and 3 i have a bit of anxiety. I Can feel it when i am at the gym during the mornings. Its Usually not a problem to get through these days, i am too busy for porn anyway. Its the weekends that get me, at night is when i relapse the most. Earlier this year i made it to 80 days, but for the last few months i have been struggling to get back on the horse, oh well, speaking about it might be what i need.
 
Day 5
Its the start of the weekend where relapses usually come into play. So i've made time to plan how i will tackle my friday evenings, i get home from work at about 5 o'clock where i usually would go to bed and play video games and watch movies until i go to sleep. So Today i will go to the gym after work for an hour on the treadmill to stay busy and get rid of any excess energy and by 9 o'clock i will turn my tv off. I dont know how it will go but i am confident if i can get a handle on my weekends i can start building a streak.
 
I have a similar problem of going right to my computor after work to spend the rest of my day. My advice is that before you settle in, think about what you're about to do and how much good it's doing you. Also, spending excess time in your bed like that can cause physical and psychological problems such as trouble falling asleep
Ok, thanks will keep that in mind. It does feel better to do more active activities before preparing for sleep.
 
Day 8
I made it through the weekend without much issues, there were some cravings but having my phone and laptop not allowed in my room makes things easier. This week will probably be harder will see when i get there.
 
Day 4
I have a confession to make, i relapsed on thursday and friday as well, i got back on my feet on sunday and now i am slowly working my way back to 11 days. I made the mistake of trying to download movies on sketchy sites and stumbled upon some NSFW ads and from there things continued to escalate. Usually i am at work but i worked at home on thursday and upon finishing my given work quickly i spent the rest of my time browsing around on my laptop and phone, by not having a plan for my day to follow i made the mistake of letting my guard down. Anyways the shame i felt is gone now all i want to focus on is today and by the end of the day i will make sure to plan out this thursday to avoid the same issues.
 
Day 9
Its been a week so far, i am coming close to 11 days which was where i relapsed so i really want to focus on getting back there. I have gotten into onine dating during the weekend, my social skills could use some shaping up its been a while. Granted i have not gotten much matches yet, i suspect its because i wrote short king in my bio. Anyway, i plan on making it through this week no exceptions. See you on the other side.
 
Day 11
While driving to work this morning i got angry and was beligerent to this guy even though i was the one at fault for not stopping at the stop street. Kinda shitty behaviour that i dont like and i do not want to be about, the smallest things are pissing me off and i dont want to be like that, right now i cant afford a therapist, i will be able to go this weekend though.
 

96LostWanderer

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Day 11
While driving to work this morning i got angry and was beligerent to this guy even though i was the one at fault for not stopping at the stop street. Kinda shitty behaviour that i dont like and i do not want to be about, the smallest things are pissing me off and i dont want to be like that, right now i cant afford a therapist, i will be able to go this weekend though.

I have also done that this year and been angry a few times unreasonably. It’s to do with stress and frustration. Maybe take up meditation, reading or going for calming walks, these things can help. Also watch your caffeine consumption - I always feel more on edge when I’ve had too much coffee or Red Bull.
 
I have also done that this year and been angry a few times unreasonably. It’s to do with stress and frustration. Maybe take up meditation, reading or going for calming walks, these things can help. Also watch your caffeine consumption - I always feel more on edge when I’ve had too much coffee or Red Bull.
Thanks for the suggestions man.
 
Day 16
After lots of trail and error, i have finally made it to 2 weeks. I have been struggling to reach 2 weeks since May so i have been spending all this time building new better habits and being my own worst enemy. I Spent my weekend staying busy for fear of relapsing on the weekends, which was what has been happening to me for a while now. I have been walking my dogs, taking walks on the beach and just being as social as i could be, and by the end of the night i would be pretty tired. It helps that i do not alow my phone or laptop in bed. Now, to focus on this week.
 
Day 25
The streak has been going well so far, i have been slacking on my self appointed rule to leave my phone out of bed though. It has not made my goal harder but i feel like not having it in my room decreases my chances of relapsing even more. Anyway i plan on rebuilding that habit.
 
Day 2
I am ashamed to admit that i relapsed during the weekend, it was early morning which is not something that usually happens to me. I had become overconfident since i had overcame cravings earlier that week and i was in my bed with my phone, it finally came to bite me in the end. Theres no one to blame but myself, its hard to feel down or angry when i have so much work to focus on right now. All i can do is focus on the work stick to my schedule and stay away from anything that will cause cravings and relapses. I know what silly mistakes i made, all thats left to do right now is to get over those mistakes and figure out the best way.
 
Day 12
I am close to reaching 2 weeks, i have been keeping my phone out of my room and staying busy, it has proven to be a good combination. I have been so busy with work theres bearly time for anything else its been a blessing in disguise, right now i am thinking about how to deal with this weekend which is usually where things go horribly wrong.
 
Day 5 mood 8/10 libido 3/10
Its been awhile since i took time to journal on here, last year was the last time actually. I have been having a hard time during the second half of 2021 struggling to start a succesfull streak only slowly chipping away to get even a few days. I have been able to take a few lessons from it and have a good idea of where my cracks are and how to handle it. I am confident to get through the week atleast we'll handle the downs as they come.
 
Day 6 mood 9/10 libido 3/10
Yesterday was easy going, i worked overtime so fell asleep as soon as i had finished dinner. Right now i am preparing for thursday which is the day i work at home and had relapsed a few times. So after my gym session tommorow i will be working at a cafe close to it instead of working at home which will help curb cravings if the plan works then all that is left to worry about is handling my weekends which also has been a problem in the past.
 
Day 12 mood 9/10 libido 7/10
I have been so busy the whole weekend i could not even find time to think about porn, i was doing overtime for my job and i have been helping my local chess club set up for a upcoming chess tournament this weekend, a pretty big one. I am going to be so busy at night helping them set up it will be easy to get through the second week of the reboot.
 
Day 15 mood 10/10 libido 8/10
Yesterday, for the first time this week i had a break because of the public holiday (youth day) here in south africa. I still had work but i was not having to work crazy hours deep into the night. While all that work has been keeping me busy i could feel the lack of sleep affeccting me so i was happy to have a easier time.
 
Day 18 mood 7/10 libido 9/10
Friday evening i had a craving to watch porn, i got really close but it was a good chance to practice something i learned from noah b church's book wack where he mentioned that when he had a craving he would leave the room immediately and do something. It was late at night so i went to my bed immediately, i dont use my phone in bed to make things easier for me. So just laying there and falling asleep seemed to do the trick. I have been getting quite a few cravings as of late, it seems taking my reboot one day at a time and having a simple plan to handle cravings seem to be the trick.
 
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