A New Beginning, um, again…

The first 5 or 6 weeks are the hardest ... I remember. Not that I'm saying it's easy after that. It's just not as difficult. If we can get you through that period ... that's a good thing.
 

JerryTX

Active Member
Welcome and nice job on getting through these urges. Being home alone is/was a huge factor in my PMO. Like you I find exercise is a good way to win the battle. This PMO Demon is a strong one and even though I have come a long way in my journey, the demon has yet to completely give up on pursuing me!! Good news is the more battles you win the more perseverance you get! Hang in there and this site has been a blessing in my journey.
 

guitar1968

Well-Known Member
Made it through safe. At my son’s soccer game now. Grateful to I’ve Swornoff’s support and this community. : )
The good news is it does get easier. Keep at it, find better things to do with your time and you will be very pleased at the results. But, a slip here and there doesn't set you back completely. Every few steps we take forward help.
 
So grateful for this community’s support.
Day 8 pmo free: )
No I did not look at porn today. No slipperiness, yay : )
One or two brief triggers when I was on my run, seeing women in summery, running outfits,
Soothe my anxiety- did my prayers, meditation, ran over lunch, listened to calm music, and asked questions to co-workers to make sure I was understanding something correctly.
grateful for this recovery community and so much more
 
When I see a pretty woman in real life, I like to be able to say, "Man! That's pretty!" And move on.

I've always appreciated femininity. On far more than just a sexual level. Like I do mountains, trees, and flowers. I don't think this interferes with the reboot.
 

guitar1968

Well-Known Member
When I see a pretty woman in real life, I like to be able to say, "Man! That's pretty!" And move on.

I've always appreciated femininity. On far more than just a sexual level. Like I do mountains, trees, and flowers. I don't think this interferes with the reboot.
I think we all do and that is natural. I don't think any of us should feel bad about seeing a beautiful woman and admiring her. Maybe we shouldn't immediately create an entire porn fantasy around them though! I have to say, this has been one of the harder things for me to do. I don't always imagine them in a porn fantasy per se, but I often wonder what they would look like nude. It's been very hard to stop this. Maybe it's fading along with some of the other images in my head, but yeah, I've got some work to do here.
 
J

J01

Guest
Nice work, and congratulations on making this commitment to improve your life!
 
I finished the memo that I was working on but I did procrastinate and felt slippery a few times trying to escape that feeling in my body. Going for a run helped.
 
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Day 12 pmo. : )
Triggers - anxiety/procrastination,
How did I soothe my anxiety - calm music, went for a run, short list of tasks to focus on
Gratitude- for my recovery, the recovery community, my sons, my wife, my family, home, my job, my boss, our home, my health care and so much more
 
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Day 16 pmo free: )
No porn today - got some work done but not as much as I’d hoped. Ran into a few hiccups, vented with my brother a little and saw that this was doable but that I just needed to make peace with and accept what I could not change.
Grateful for my sons, my wife, our home, my job, my recovery and so much more.
 
Day 1 again. : ( Working from home on a work computer has been a challenge. Don't know what to do. It's insane to think no one knows. When I am in the bubble--my addict does not care--just wants that escape. Am open to ideas as to how others deal with this struggle.
 
I know. It's so easy. It's RIGHT THERE, and there's nothing but you to stop you.

My answer is that you have to despise it ... its effects ... what it's making you ... enough to tell the addict to go to hell. Consistently. Like, every time. No, "just this once" WILL hurt. Maybe not much, today, but it opens the door to doing it tomorrow, too, and it's moving in the wrong direction.

Any excuse to keep the door open has to be killed. Dead.
 
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