Small step to the moon

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Concretesoup

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Day 18

PMO - no, yeahhh survived another day!!
MO - no
morning wood - yeah even though still sluggish
triggers - some triggers but I avoid surfing it for so long.
urges - getting less urges today
motivation - getting more than before.
concentration - a little bit disturbed with games ahaha.
shortness of breath - getting better today.

This will surely pass!! Keep on going!!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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46and2

Active Member
I like how quick you bounce back from a relapse man! Thats admirable; once I relapse its hard to tell when it ends. Keep up the great work in yourself brother.
 
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Concretesoup

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46and2 said:
I like how quick you bounce back from a relapse man! Thats admirable; once I relapse its hard to tell when it ends. Keep up the great work in yourself brother.
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Thank you very much brother...really appreciate it...I just try to busy myself with my job and if the urges come, I try to surf it for some time, but if it gets bigger and some voice in my head tell me "that's it bro", I'll go for cold shower and if it doesn't work, I'll just leave my pc, take my car key and drive around my block until the urges go away haha :ROFLMAO::ROFLMAO:...it sounds silly but somehow it works most of the time. Wish you all the best for your reboot brother!! We can do this!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 19

PMO - nope, not a peek brother...yeahhh survived another day!! 👼👼👼
MO - nope, P was not fed today haha...Get Lost!!
Morning wood - experienced some for like 15 - 20 minutes but still sluggish..
Triggers - some triggers from ads in Instagram and FB but I avoid surfing it for so long. PFC asked me to stop scrolling so...yeah he can control me haha...Great job Mr. PFC!!
Urges - getting less urges today. I took a walk today, then, just took my car key and drove around.
Motivation - getting less motivation today.
Procrastination - I did procrastinate some of my work that should be done by today.
Concentration - less concentration today but I have a meeting and yeps, I can still gave some inputs to the outcome haha. Brain's concentration functioning well for about 2 hours haha!
Shortness of breath - getting better today. Sometime I felt like my body metabolism increase, but perhaps that anxiety haha!! I'm doing IF, some calmness will eventually come....c'mon!!

This will surely pass!! Keep on going brothers!!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 20

PMO - nope, not a peek brother...yeahhh survived another day!! 👼👼👼
MO - nope
Morning wood - still sluggish..keep on going
Triggers - some triggers from during my walk outside.
Urges - getting some urges today...but keep it down
Motivation - getting less motivation today.
Procrastination - I did procrastinate some of my work that should be done by today.
Concentration - less concentration today.
Shortness of breath - getting better today.

This will surely pass!! Keep on going brothers!!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

Member
Day 21

PMO - yes

what were the Triggers? - I went to sleep late for 2 days because I watched tournaments so I didn't get enough sleep. Sleep deprivation caused me to feel tired in the morning and lose focus the whole day. So I started aimlessly browsing and BOOM!! RELAPSED! It's crazy fast escalated :(:(

But 1 thing I realised is, my eyes didn't follow along hot girls and triggers when I took a walk or when they passed in front of me. When I happen to look at them, my brain is telling me to embrace their beauty, instead of telling me to go fapping imagining their curves. This makes me sure that this reboot is working! I'll keep on going brothers! I know I can do this!

Even though this road is going to be hard but I know that this will surely pass!! Keep on going brothers!!! 💪 💪💪
 
Phineas 808

Phineas 808

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I like your approach toward urges, because you show:

1. That urges do eventually pass;

2. That we can outlast any urge...

I would suggest, however, not to react to the urges, even in fighting them. Notice them, don't be judgemental on yourself, and breathe slowly and deeply until the urges pass. If they return (as they often do in waves), rinse-and-repeat.

You can do this, brother!
 
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aviatormech

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Concretesoup said:
Day 21

PMO - yes

what were the Triggers? - I went to sleep late for 2 days because I watched tournaments so I didn't get enough sleep. Sleep deprivation caused me to feel tired in the morning and lose focus the whole day. So I started aimlessly browsing and BOOM!! RELAPSED! It's crazy fast escalated :(:(

But 1 thing I realised is, my eyes didn't follow along hot girls and triggers when I took a walk or when they passed in front of me. When I happen to look at them, my brain is telling me to embrace their beauty, instead of telling me to go fapping imagining their curves. This makes me sure that this reboot is working! I'll keep on going brothers! I know I can do this!

Even though this road is going to be hard but I know that this will surely pass!! Keep on going brothers!!! 💪 💪💪
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You've got the strength to bounce back. Keep fighting the good fight. I'm new to this page. I've read every mans battle, did research, tried to set up boundaries but I cant seem to break the habit. I've never openly discussed my addiction with anyone other than my wife until today though. If it's alright with you. I'll post my progress here on this page to try to keep myself accountable.

As far as sleep deprivation goes, that's my number one trigger. I'm taking college classes right now and I often start browsing and loosing interest in my school work when I'm staying up late to do homework. I've logged off of facebook completely to avoid the adds. I'm pretty week when it comes to resisting internet triggers so I'm trying to avoid them all together. Youtube was the start of my downfall today. I just don't seem to care enough but I hate my addiction and want to quit. This is day zero for a last ditch attempt for me to quit for good.
 
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Concretesoup

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Phineas 808 said:
I like your approach toward urges, because you show:

1. That urges do eventually pass;

2. That we can outlast any urge...

I would suggest, however, not to react to the urges, even in fighting them. Notice them, don't be judgemental on yourself, and breathe slowly and deeply until the urges pass. If they return (as they often do in waves), rinse-and-repeat.

You can do this, brother!
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Thank you very much brother for the suggestion 👍👍👍 I really appreciate that. I've heard and watched some rebooting vids on not to react to urges. Thank you for the reminder, I am now slowly trying to understand how these all mechanism works with not reacting to urges and try to learn to surf the urges (breath slowly and let the urges pass) but seriously, once you can breath and let the urges pass, you'll feel like a monk already😁😁😁 I've tried few times and the success feeling was real!! HAHA!

We can do this!!
 
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Concretesoup

Member
Day 22

Hi...its Mr. C here...How was it yesterday?

Mr. PMO - nope, not a peek! are you sure you don't want a peek?? HAHA I'm sorry bro, you done so much damage to us. Please leave..
Mr. MO - its ok C, let me stay! No bro, I need to do the retention...you can walk with Mr. PMO if you wish.
Ms. Triggers - C, what do you think of me?? I embrace your beauty, T, I'll leave you right where you are...wish you all the best!
Mr. Urges - C, I'll will always come and go, but I'll never leave you bro. I know, but I can control you HAHA!! please behave..

Survived another day yeahh!!!

We can do this brothers!! Keep on moving!! 💪💪💪
 
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Concretesoup

Member
aviatormech said:
You've got the strength to bounce back. Keep fighting the good fight. I'm new to this page. I've read every mans battle, did research, tried to set up boundaries but I cant seem to break the habit. I've never openly discussed my addiction with anyone other than my wife until today though. If it's alright with you. I'll post my progress here on this page to try to keep myself accountable.

As far as sleep deprivation goes, that's my number one trigger. I'm taking college classes right now and I often start browsing and loosing interest in my school work when I'm staying up late to do homework. I've logged off of facebook completely to avoid the adds. I'm pretty week when it comes to resisting internet triggers so I'm trying to avoid them all together. Youtube was the start of my downfall today. I just don't seem to care enough but I hate my addiction and want to quit. This is day zero for a last ditch attempt for me to quit for good.
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Thank you for your words brother(y)(y)(y)...I know its hard to stay on this path...but I'd rather quit this for good than becoming slave to my addiction. Same goes to you brother, kudos for trying to get out of this hell hole forever. There will always be relapse aka set back for many times before we succeed, but as I know, even one day clean without P is better than so many days with P.

If you have time, please read "Your Brain On Porn" written by Gary Wilson. You'll discover many side effects from watching P. I didn't really logged off my FB and other social media accounts anyway but try to use Porn Blocker instead. I still use all social media for connecting with my friends because today we can't really meet because of the pandemic. But if you wanted to do dopamine fasting, then by limiting the usage is way better for you.

I always wish you the best brother...I know you can do this!! Keep it going!! One day at a time yeah!! 🤟🤟🤟

p/s: I'm ok if you wanted to post here or on your page, I can always pinned the page and read the postings...Have a great day!! 🤓🤓🤓
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 23-24

Hi, its C here...I actually missed one day haha..been busy sometime...but keeping myself clean without Mr P.

I just finish my work and its 10pm already, so its time for cold shower and sleep!! haha...

No Mr PMO for today. Pity him haha..starving him to death yeahh. But I still feel lack of concentration and motivation..the morning wood come and go now, the timing also varies, sometimes very early, sometimes really when I wake up. So its ok because I feel the healing process.

Found few triggers today...but yeahh, just didn't react to them, so took a deep breath and focus on my mission 🤘 🤘 🤘

For those who chose this path, all the best in your undertakings!! Keep your head high!! we all can do this!! 💪💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Maglue said:
Start back at day 1 after relapse?
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Thank you for the comment brother..appreciate it..I've done that before, starting back to zero after a relapse, then I went for therapy session and I learned that a relapse doesn't erase all your hardwork...it does reverse your few days work back, but by looking at how many days you relapse in a months for example will show you how many days you actually clean and progressing...but still, it depends on how you wanted to do it brother ;)🤘 important thing is, keep on going💪💪💪 all the best in your journey!
 
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Concretesoup

Member
Day 25

I went out with my gf today, so spending time with her driving around city kept me far from my pc. So no pmo today, just some triggers hit during the day but yeah, took a deep breath, and let it go.. :cool:
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 26 - 30 - Recap (30 Days)

Day 26 and 30 - I relapsed.
Day 27 - 29 - manage to be clean
What was actually happened? - I recently had a quite busy schedule with a lot of work coming in. but when I've completed the work, I was tired but I was still aimlessly browsing without going to bed early. That how triggers came and that escalated very fast. But I still manage my sleep time at around 10 - 11 pm every night.
How to overcome? - Do not react to the urges. Then, when it is time to sleep and I feel tired, just go to sleep without aimlessly browsing before bed. Next, if I have surfed the urges for quite long and cant resist, take a cold shower or just go do something else.

I can do this!! Keep on going!! This is going to be hard but it'll surely pass! 💪💪💪

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