TheBayButcher
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Hi!, I'm Kyle Buttler. I'm from Latino America and my main lenguage is the spanish so sorry if i dont choose the right words to explain something but I hope you get the main idea.
A summary of my story: I started watching porn at the age of 10, always hidden from my parents and in those times it was hard to access for me because we had just one pc and my family was always at home, so i had to wait for them to go and then PMO.
At the age of 17 I got my own pc and with brothers gone i had the bedroom for myself and there i think everything started. I started consuming porn as much as i could. Sharing pages and actresses with my friends. Despite of the consumption in that year and the following i could have sex with other girls.
At the age of 20 i was submerged in porn as never before, super actresses didnt satisfy me so i started watching violent porn, etc. For my bday, that year, i experienced my first ED ever. Firstly i thought it would normal, but it happened again the following week. I went doctors, they said it was normal and they gave me a pill (cialis) to solve it. I tried it, worked the first year, but meanwhile porn always porn. Then one day, even drinking the pill, i couldnt get an erection so i started clinical studies including blood and rigisican (which had possitive results in terms of biological problems, aiming to psics problems).
At the age of 21, no sex in between, I had no woods, either strong erections while watching porn. I knew something was wrong so i kept going changing my diet, etc. My docs didnt know what to tell me.
At the age of 22, I kept PMO. With the COVID-19 situation i didnt move from my home.
At the age of 23, i took more pills than ever reaching 20 mg of cialis which was really lot for me and tried with 2 diff girls and couldnt get a bonner. I dediced to try with eco-doppler and the answer: everything alright. I drowned in a big depression reaching the limits of put a gun on my head, cried lot, always asking me why the hell it happens to me and what would be wrong. Nobody could give me the solution, and i couldnt find it anywhere. I didnt belive in god, i was atheist but i said i have to solve it some way. I went to the church and started praying. Some days later and after looking for years i found this. Started reading and after reading Gary book i knew i had PIED. I know it may sounds silly, but in my country theres no lot of info about this and doctors seems to have no idea plus i never ever could find a solution.
I thought been part of this comunity would help me.
So here I'm, standing in the day 18. I'm eager to consume porn as never. My mind is playing dirty with me but i have to keep going.
Thanks for reading! and sorry for my english!
IM NOT A PUPPET, MY MIND IS NOT MY MASTER!!!
A summary of my story: I started watching porn at the age of 10, always hidden from my parents and in those times it was hard to access for me because we had just one pc and my family was always at home, so i had to wait for them to go and then PMO.
At the age of 17 I got my own pc and with brothers gone i had the bedroom for myself and there i think everything started. I started consuming porn as much as i could. Sharing pages and actresses with my friends. Despite of the consumption in that year and the following i could have sex with other girls.
At the age of 20 i was submerged in porn as never before, super actresses didnt satisfy me so i started watching violent porn, etc. For my bday, that year, i experienced my first ED ever. Firstly i thought it would normal, but it happened again the following week. I went doctors, they said it was normal and they gave me a pill (cialis) to solve it. I tried it, worked the first year, but meanwhile porn always porn. Then one day, even drinking the pill, i couldnt get an erection so i started clinical studies including blood and rigisican (which had possitive results in terms of biological problems, aiming to psics problems).
At the age of 21, no sex in between, I had no woods, either strong erections while watching porn. I knew something was wrong so i kept going changing my diet, etc. My docs didnt know what to tell me.
At the age of 22, I kept PMO. With the COVID-19 situation i didnt move from my home.
At the age of 23, i took more pills than ever reaching 20 mg of cialis which was really lot for me and tried with 2 diff girls and couldnt get a bonner. I dediced to try with eco-doppler and the answer: everything alright. I drowned in a big depression reaching the limits of put a gun on my head, cried lot, always asking me why the hell it happens to me and what would be wrong. Nobody could give me the solution, and i couldnt find it anywhere. I didnt belive in god, i was atheist but i said i have to solve it some way. I went to the church and started praying. Some days later and after looking for years i found this. Started reading and after reading Gary book i knew i had PIED. I know it may sounds silly, but in my country theres no lot of info about this and doctors seems to have no idea plus i never ever could find a solution.
I thought been part of this comunity would help me.
So here I'm, standing in the day 18. I'm eager to consume porn as never. My mind is playing dirty with me but i have to keep going.
Thanks for reading! and sorry for my english!
IM NOT A PUPPET, MY MIND IS NOT MY MASTER!!!