Day 22

Ziggy116

Member
On day 21... No pmo no mo.. Just a weekly bj from partner... Feeling good, thinking less about porn... Have deleted all porn from phone and computer... Started back to the gym this week which feels awesome... No depression, no bad side effects at all... Maybe because I'm not hard core reboot? Idk... But so glad I'm not watching porn.. And not jacking off...I do feel more alert at work and in my daily activities... Morning wood is 100% as it always has been. Even had a partial erection during the day yesterday, that doesn't happen very often... Just trying to not fantasize and not think about porn...I don't want to ever go back..
EVER!!! EVER!!! EVER!!!
 

Ziggy116

Member
I have a wonderful partner... I've not mo at all and no pmo and only let him give me oral once a week now..(usually he wants to every morning)..I know.. How lucky am I. But im afraid the daily bj may hinder process...I do love to Jack off so honestly not doing that or touching myself has been the hardest part...I hope I'm in the right route...I just know NO PORN!
 

guitar1968

Well-Known Member
Sounds like you are definitely on the right track! Congrats. Glad you still have your partner and sexual activity with him. I think the human connection versus the computer connection is the right move!
 

Ziggy116

Member
Sounds like you are definitely on the right track! Congrats. Glad you still have your partner and sexual activity with him. I think the human connection versus the computer connection is the right move!
Thank you guitar1968....I am truly glad I have found this site and you have been a true inspiration for me...I have read and re read all of your posts... Thank you so much.
 

guitar1968

Well-Known Member
Thank you guitar1968....I am truly glad I have found this site and you have been a true inspiration for me...I have read and re read all of your posts... Thank you so much.
I'm glad I can help. It's a day to day struggle for sure, but it does seem possible now where it never did before. Good luck and stay strong!
 

Ziggy116

Member
Anyone ever hear of or try black ginger? I hear the benefits are amazing. And not just for erections.. Just wondered if anyone ever tried it.
 

Ziggy116

Member
Day 29... No PMO and only MO once a couple weeks ago... First I just want to say how thankful I am too have found this forum and for everyone that posts on here... Certainly keeps me motivated and hopeful for a full recovery... So day 29 today and first day I've been home alone for weeks..I have the day off and my partner just left for work.... This is when I normally would jump on the computer.. Naked of course, and binge away on porn jerking off to orgasm many times throughout the day...so, it's challenging right now so decided to get on here and write in hopes of blocking those urges, so far so good and mainly because I've been clean 29 days and already feeling some slight changes. As I've mentioned in a previous post I have cut down on the morning bj from partner from like 5 to 1 time a week, which has been on the weekends... One thing I have definitely noticed is that after going all week with no mo or bj my orgasm is way more intense and I am feeling much more sensation down there during the event. Wonderful!!! Morning wood everyday as usual.. That's never been a problem... Possibly somewhat of a flatline during the week... Not really sure, just some days.. And a few days I've had random semi erections while at work... That hasn't happened in a long time.. The other thing that has happened, and sorry if I'm being too graphic but want to share, last night after going to bed my partner and I were making out and he proceeded to massage my testicles...I became hard as a rock just from the kissing... Yay... And after about 4 or 5 minutes of him massaging my sac I actually had an orgasm... That has NEVER happened... The sensation was just awesome... No touching of my cock except for his arm occasionally brushing against it..I just felt so connected to him, he has been so understanding about all this and totally with me too kick my addiction. I'm so determined to do this and definitely encouraged by the results im having so far...I know I have a long way to go to full recovery but I know life will be much better and fulfilling as will the sex...I want to feel like the old me again...I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday. 😊
 

Swema

Member
Day 29... No PMO and only MO once a couple weeks ago... First I just want to say how thankful I am too have found this forum and for everyone that posts on here... Certainly keeps me motivated and hopeful for a full recovery... So day 29 today and first day I've been home alone for weeks..I have the day off and my partner just left for work.... This is when I normally would jump on the computer.. Naked of course, and binge away on porn jerking off to orgasm many times throughout the day...so, it's challenging right now so decided to get on here and write in hopes of blocking those urges, so far so good and mainly because I've been clean 29 days and already feeling some slight changes. As I've mentioned in a previous post I have cut down on the morning bj from partner from like 5 to 1 time a week, which has been on the weekends... One thing I have definitely noticed is that after going all week with no mo or bj my orgasm is way more intense and I am feeling much more sensation down there during the event. Wonderful!!! Morning wood everyday as usual.. That's never been a problem... Possibly somewhat of a flatline during the week... Not really sure, just some days.. And a few days I've had random semi erections while at work... That hasn't happened in a long time.. The other thing that has happened, and sorry if I'm being too graphic but want to share, last night after going to bed my partner and I were making out and he proceeded to massage my testicles...I became hard as a rock just from the kissing... Yay... And after about 4 or 5 minutes of him massaging my sac I actually had an orgasm... That has NEVER happened... The sensation was just awesome... No touching of my cock except for his arm occasionally brushing against it..I just felt so connected to him, he has been so understanding about all this and totally with me too kick my addiction. I'm so determined to do this and definitely encouraged by the results im having so far...I know I have a long way to go to full recovery but I know life will be much better and fulfilling as will the sex...I want to feel like the old me again...I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday. 😊
Awesome thanks for sharing! This helps a newbee here
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
Day 30....I can't believe it. Never went more than a couple days either out PMO. Or masturbating... Feeling good about all this in so many ways.
That's the same reaction I had when my streak was 3 weeks and I was the guy who relapsed in less than 10 days. It shows you that it's more possible than you think. We have the ability to go without porn forever.
 

Ziggy116

Member
That's the same reaction I had when my streak was 3 weeks and I was the guy who relapsed in less than 10 days. It shows you that it's more possible than you think. We have the ability to go without porn forever.
Yes we do...I am so determined to over come this addiction once and for all....I was once a horny little sucker all the time... Couldn't get enough (of the real thing that is). Until porn ruined me... I'm so disgusted with myself for indulging in that crap for 40 some years..ugh... How much time of my life wasted watching that crap... Dick in hand.. Whacking away all while I was getting the real thing quite often...idk...I guess the novelty of it... What a waste... But this time I'm done.... Finished... Want to be the true me again... Just like I came out of the closet at 50... It's never too late to change and be the real you and to honestly enjoy life as you should... No regrets here... Just the wasted time with porn.
 

Ziggy116

Member
Day 31 today... Strange thing happened...I had a dream last night that I was having wild sex with an ex girlfriend from like 35 years ago.. WTH? Was not a wet dream, no mess this morning, but I'm a gay man. However, I've had plenty of women and was married to a woman... This is all kind of confusing but I enjoyed the dream... And I never dream that I remember about it the next day... But this was very vivid and realistic... Anyway, I'm guessing it's all due to cutting out most sexual activity sand no pmo or mo.
 

Ziggy116

Member
Day 35... No PMO... No MO... Finding myself horny throughout the day and a few random hard on's.... Just taking it a day at a time... Had some urges this morning but weny back to bed and woke my partner... So I'm ok now..
 
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