Cam Girl Addiction: From Financially Savvy to Buried in Debt

Seems you've been through a lot but great work making the change @FittyBands
Not sure if it's any consolation, but you will be a better, stronger man when you're on the other side of this
Takes some serious strength of character to make a big change like this 💪
 

FittyBands

Active Member
¡Es lo correcto! Es un gran escrito y muy interesante! ¡Te mereces un Me Gusta! ¡Te deseo lo mejor! Puedes manejar esto, por supuesto que puedes, ¡nunca te rindas! ¡También recuerdo cuando pasé por ese proceso! ¡Realmente está en los niveles más bajos! ¡Gracias a Dios logré ganar! Uno de los videos que me ayudó mucho fue este! Si tienes tiempo, ¡te ayudará mucho! https://bit.ly/3EnqG6q
¡Gracias por el contenido!
 

FittyBands

Active Member
Today I fucked up again...found a loophole and saw a satellite website for the original one I was hooked. Spent $23 on a vid...it was a vid of the cam girl...I was curious to see if it was a vid between me and her or someone else...I felt jealous to not be able to produce content with her...then blocked everything again. I have to stay away from this poison.
 

TryingHarder

Well-Known Member
I still went on a final spending spree on other models for an hour..."to get it out of my system"...that is how pervasive my addiction was.

I haven't paid for porn for a very long time, but know where you're coming from. The whole idea of "one last time to get it out of your system" will never work. It will happen again and again and again and again and again and again and again. My mindset is: there is no one more time, only the last time, and there will never be a next time.
 

Ingibjörg

Member
My relapse hit me hard. I wasted so much money.
I think its very good you are being honest when you relapse. Good luck mate!

Some thing which helps me from time to time is the metascript method from universal men. (Free). Its just a writing method to change your thoughts. Maybe you couls find some benefits of it
 

Hooked_Chef

New Member
My relapse hit me hard. I wasted so much money.
Hey Fittybands,

I've just come onto this forum for the first time looking for help as I am in a very similar situation to you. I read through the whole thread finally feeling like I'm not alone in this struggle, yet saddened to hear of others who are as deep/deeper in this hell as me.

I made my first account on a camsite almost exactly two years ago now. I'd been furloughed from work through the first covid lockdown and had spent about 4 months not having to work but still being paid. Lot's of free time and more expendable income than I'd ever had. In hindsight, I've had an addictive attitude towards porn for a loonngg time, but I believe the freedom of time in covid resulted in my digging far deeper into this darkness. I began spending much more time (up to 3 or 4 hours) at a time watching porn, about 3 or 4 times a week. The longer the session became the less satisfied I seemed to be - only ever enjoying the last half an hour or so after finally settling on what to watch.

I'd been on camsites before and lurked but never made an account or paid for anything. But as my dissatisfaction with free porn intensified I decided I'd make an account to see what it was like. After a week or two I bought my first tokens. I was furious with myself for spending money (for the first time ever) on porn - feeling dirty at my lack of control and horrified at the consequences it may have on my bank records (It was just $10 and all that I spent for the first month). But.. I recognised immediately how much more excitement I got from it - the interactivity of it, the admiration and so on.

To cut a long(er) story short, I've just hit my two year mark of camgirl addiction. The longest I've gone without spending has been two weeks. The longest I've gone without looking significantly less, probably about 5 days. I spend around $50-$100 a month on it. I don't enjoy it any more. I hate that I once did, but at least it had some kind of purpose.
 
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