Wintercustomer6
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Sooo this a story all about how my life got flipped turned upside down, I would for you to take a seat right there and tell you how I became a porn addict.
Where shall we start…hello my name is ******* and I am a porn addict. Let’s start with that.
I have been watching porn since 10-11 years old, accidentally stumbled on it while on a suspicious pirated films website. I had no idea what it was or how it was gonna shape my mind. Porn has affected: my confidence from a young age, how I view women, what I thought of sex, my mental health, my happiness. I have been through it all with porn, my ups and downs.
I have seen my child self falling in love with this exciting new entertainment/escape that’s called porn. I have seen my teenage self dive deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole for more taboo and weird porn. I have seen my young adulthood suffer with performance anxiety and the addiction to porn built up over years.
Now I am 21, sitting here, telling you about why I haven’t been able to overcome this addiction. I know all the negatives, I know what the future holds if I carry on down this path but I haven’t been able to resist that temptations after a short while of not watching. The longest I have gone without it in the last 10year was probably 3-4 months. I have been trying to quit porn for the last 3 years and still struggling. I have hit rock bottom with this addiction. I have relapsed so many times, I have lost count. Every time I give in, I can feel the self hate, shame and hopeless grow. I can feel it wear down my mental health so much. I feel lost, I feel deflated. I wish I could talk to my younger self about what I was getting into.
I relapsed today ! I want to start quitting again ! I want to overcome this demon that has been haunting me for years. Please give me some help and support through this journey. This is my first time posting in a thread. If you are going through a similar journey, let me know, I don’t want to fight this alone anymore.
Where shall we start…hello my name is ******* and I am a porn addict. Let’s start with that.
I have been watching porn since 10-11 years old, accidentally stumbled on it while on a suspicious pirated films website. I had no idea what it was or how it was gonna shape my mind. Porn has affected: my confidence from a young age, how I view women, what I thought of sex, my mental health, my happiness. I have been through it all with porn, my ups and downs.
I have seen my child self falling in love with this exciting new entertainment/escape that’s called porn. I have seen my teenage self dive deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole for more taboo and weird porn. I have seen my young adulthood suffer with performance anxiety and the addiction to porn built up over years.
Now I am 21, sitting here, telling you about why I haven’t been able to overcome this addiction. I know all the negatives, I know what the future holds if I carry on down this path but I haven’t been able to resist that temptations after a short while of not watching. The longest I have gone without it in the last 10year was probably 3-4 months. I have been trying to quit porn for the last 3 years and still struggling. I have hit rock bottom with this addiction. I have relapsed so many times, I have lost count. Every time I give in, I can feel the self hate, shame and hopeless grow. I can feel it wear down my mental health so much. I feel lost, I feel deflated. I wish I could talk to my younger self about what I was getting into.
I relapsed today ! I want to start quitting again ! I want to overcome this demon that has been haunting me for years. Please give me some help and support through this journey. This is my first time posting in a thread. If you are going through a similar journey, let me know, I don’t want to fight this alone anymore.
) and one night while we dated we wanted to have sex… and nothing my penis was dead because too much porn