dssj92
Member
Day 1 - 10/10/2021
Hi guys, first of all, I'd like to apologize once English is not my first language. I'm 29 years old and I live in Brazil. I'm close to have my Doctorate degree on Chemical Engineering on feb-2022, though I always had some problems on PMO. Actually I've been struggling with PMO since I was 16 y.o. I decided to make the reboot since 2020 because my P use escalated to material that did not correspond to my sexuality (related to trans, CDs and other contents). I have even tried to go to chat rooms and talk to those people on internet, but after the talk I didn't feel good. Therapist didn't help me too because she said this behavior was normal, and after 1 year of treatment things didn't improve too much.
I could manage about 45 days twice, but some stress made me come back to this bad habit. I've decided to change because I've discovered a reason to live for: I want to be a good professor, and I want to be the best version of myself to the students too. It' possible to live without PMO, I'll do my best.
Some related questions that are important to me:
Hi guys, first of all, I'd like to apologize once English is not my first language. I'm 29 years old and I live in Brazil. I'm close to have my Doctorate degree on Chemical Engineering on feb-2022, though I always had some problems on PMO. Actually I've been struggling with PMO since I was 16 y.o. I decided to make the reboot since 2020 because my P use escalated to material that did not correspond to my sexuality (related to trans, CDs and other contents). I have even tried to go to chat rooms and talk to those people on internet, but after the talk I didn't feel good. Therapist didn't help me too because she said this behavior was normal, and after 1 year of treatment things didn't improve too much.
I could manage about 45 days twice, but some stress made me come back to this bad habit. I've decided to change because I've discovered a reason to live for: I want to be a good professor, and I want to be the best version of myself to the students too. It' possible to live without PMO, I'll do my best.
Some related questions that are important to me:
- Triggers: it's kind of strange, but especially low self-steem, also when the results of my thesis aren't as good as I expect. Besides, when I begin to question myself if I'm capable of doing something. This creates on me bad feelings and my stress can increase.
- How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? Through physical exercise, reading and medidation before sleeping. Also, I've discovered that I want to play electric guitar, and I'll take some lessons. But I can't do it right now because I'm giving classes till the end of february. I like to study other languages too, like French for example.
- What am I grateful for today? I'm grateful for my life, for being alive, I can walk, breathe, help the other students too.