JoeyPajamas
New Member
G'day everyone,
Like probably most people on here I've been looking at porn since I was a teenager - probably about 12 or 13. I was a pretty rough looking young feller so didn't have my first girlfriend until I was 17, so I had many years of looking at porn before I could experience the real thing. After that I'd always have several years between relationships up until my mid 20s, so again lots of porn. Addiction came easily.
Now 36 I still find myself looking at porn. I've been married for four years at this point to a beautiful, amazing woman but I still feel the need to look at porn.
Recently however, my wife and I went on holiday to her parents house. I couldn't look at porn while we where there so was "forced" to go a week porn free. As soon as we came home though - and my wife had gone to bed - , I was looking at porn again. It was at this moment I suddenly though "what the hell am I doing?" I closed down the browser without having fapped/finished and just walked away.
The following morning my wife and I had sex, but I didn't finish. I've long found it hard to finish and after reading YourBrainOnPorn I'm pretty sure my addiction is why. So, as I went for a week without porn I figured - why not just keep going? Yes, I looked at porn that one night after we got back from our holiday, but I still think its a great opportunity to start.
Before posting this I went through and deleted everything. I cleared my browser history so that I couldn't find the sites I visited again. I need to beat this addiction. I've added a day counter to my phone so I can easily see my progress, which I hope will motivate me to keep going .
So, my journey to beating porn begins. I really hope I can do this and I'm happy that I've this community to help me through it. Today is Day 1. My first goal is Day 30, so wish me luck!
Like probably most people on here I've been looking at porn since I was a teenager - probably about 12 or 13. I was a pretty rough looking young feller so didn't have my first girlfriend until I was 17, so I had many years of looking at porn before I could experience the real thing. After that I'd always have several years between relationships up until my mid 20s, so again lots of porn. Addiction came easily.
Now 36 I still find myself looking at porn. I've been married for four years at this point to a beautiful, amazing woman but I still feel the need to look at porn.
Recently however, my wife and I went on holiday to her parents house. I couldn't look at porn while we where there so was "forced" to go a week porn free. As soon as we came home though - and my wife had gone to bed - , I was looking at porn again. It was at this moment I suddenly though "what the hell am I doing?" I closed down the browser without having fapped/finished and just walked away.
The following morning my wife and I had sex, but I didn't finish. I've long found it hard to finish and after reading YourBrainOnPorn I'm pretty sure my addiction is why. So, as I went for a week without porn I figured - why not just keep going? Yes, I looked at porn that one night after we got back from our holiday, but I still think its a great opportunity to start.
Before posting this I went through and deleted everything. I cleared my browser history so that I couldn't find the sites I visited again. I need to beat this addiction. I've added a day counter to my phone so I can easily see my progress, which I hope will motivate me to keep going .
So, my journey to beating porn begins. I really hope I can do this and I'm happy that I've this community to help me through it. Today is Day 1. My first goal is Day 30, so wish me luck!
