PAWS symptoms

[WhitePanther]

I'm now on 5 months and 2 weeks.

My life has totaly changed for the better so much. I have small periods of PAWS with depression but they get smaller and smaller in frequency. However I have recently started to integrate tantra/taoist philosophy regarding my sexuality and last night i'm watching a online course regarding this. There was no genitals or interrcourse but people with very little clothes demonstrating techniques etc.

After just watching a total of 3 minutes I could feel my dopamin receptors flooding me with dopamin the same ways when I used to watch my porn binges. I turned it off.

Today I woke up and have had the worst depressive day I can recall. Insomnina all night, anxiety through the roof and brainfoog. Somehow I'm scared that I just threw almost 6 months rebooting out of the window because of this. Seriously 3 minutes of not even direct pornography, it goes to show how unbelivable sensitive our neural pathways are when rebooting.

I just had to get this off my chest. Today has been a really frustrating day and alot of sadness. I wish you all the best beating this addiction. It really has been one of the biggest struggles of my life.

All the best,
W

 

[canguro]

Yeah man, I think with our screwed up brain watching such things is a taboo for us, as our brain connects this with PMO...
We really have to be careful not to feed these neural pathways.

PS: But you didn't throw away your progress. Your neural pathway got a bit larger again, but it is much smaller than it used to be nontheless. Or do you think in your worst times of porn addiction clothed people would even have turned you on? You see, that's a good thing.