33 year-old PIED, 57 days no PMO updates

Ayahuasca

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Who I am
  • 33-year-old American male
  • Started PMO age 11
  • Used high-speed internet P daily for over 2 decades, almost never missed a day
  • Escalated to non-traditional P from a young age
  • PIED difficulty with women and sometimes even with P, since age 20, doctors were no help
  • Viagra, Cialis, Levitra all barely worked, once even 100 mg sildenafil didn't help me get up for my ex-partner
  • Don't think I had more than a few episodes of morning wood from ages 20-33, until the reboot started
  • It may be relevant to note: I had Peyronie's disease surgery (plication) at age 15, to successfully fix a downward curvature
Reboot Status
  • Significantly more energy, better mood, more focus when working on tasks
  • Flat-line weeks 2-4, then normalized for a week, then again for a week, at this moment I'm good and not worried
  • I see girls everywhere as wonderfully beautiful, enchanting, mesmerizing creatures. Something I haven't felt since I was young
  • Morning woods came back in spurts, I'd get soft MW's for a few days in a row around week 4, and they are becoming more frequent. This morning I awoke with a RAGER, it made me happy because it reinforces the progress I've made
  • Deeply attracted by this girl I see casually, I saw her yesterday and I was just transfixed and admiring her, and got hard literally just flirting and seeing that look in her eyes
What's next
  • I am 100% sure this is working for me in many ways, and I am so unbelievably excited and happy that I found a solution for potentially one of the greatest nightmares of my life. I hope I continue to heal. I'll post another update at the 90 day mark, but I plan to continue indefinitely. I'm done with P, it's an addictive disease and unnatural, it makes me weak, it's an illusory substitute without substance, and I am disgusted by it but grateful for the lesson I received from years of abusing it. I'm not on a "streak", I am on day 57 of the rest of my life.
Happy to answer any questions :).
 

AG2161

Member
Firstly, congratulations on the massive achievement, it's really pleasing to see success stories like yours.
Have a couple of questions, given my experience is quite similar to yours:
For someone with around 2 decades of PMO I feel you've achieved success in quite a short span, I'm currently in 27th day of total abstinence from PMO, I haven't really seen much improvements in my erections as such, apart from a couple of wet dreams and general improvement in my overall mood and livelihood. Would like to know what additional efforts you put in apart from stopping PMO. How did you tackle your thoughts etc...
 

Ayahuasca

New Member
Firstly, congratulations on the massive achievement, it's really pleasing to see success stories like yours.
Have a couple of questions, given my experience is quite similar to yours:
For someone with around 2 decades of PMO I feel you've achieved success in quite a short span, I'm currently in 27th day of total abstinence from PMO, I haven't really seen much improvements in my erections as such, apart from a couple of wet dreams and general improvement in my overall mood and livelihood. Would like to know what additional efforts you put in apart from stopping PMO. How did you tackle your thoughts etc...

Hey AG2161, a couple of thoughts:

I do feel like I've achieved some success, but until I begin the process of rewiring (no timeline in my head to begin that, but sometime after 90 days). I'm still bouncing up-and-down with energy levels and general sexual arousal levels, but I hope this stabilizes with time. Still, I'm very grateful for how far I've come and the physical changes I've clearly observed can only be linked to this new lifestyle.

You mentioned tackling thoughts. I cannot recommend meditation strongly enough. I have been a daily meditator for close to 10 years now, after learning about the practice from a previous therapist. Meditation allows you to take a step back and observe your current thoughts and emotions dispassionately. This is deeply liberating.

When we recognize that that we're "feeling bad", which could be because we're angry, sad, shameful, regretful, or anything else, we can simply use the skill of meditation, wherever we are, to "tune into" our bodies. When I do this, it let's me see where I really am and helps me understand that these so-called negative emotions are nothing more than energy flowing through the body, energy to which I've assigned arbitrary labels like "good" or "bad". It's all the difference in the world to know that and to see it. It converts anxiety to excitement and productivity, anger into right action, and so much more.

To start meditation, I typically recommend an app like Headspace. My daily practice is twice a day, 15 minutes each session, mindfulness meditation wherein I (primarily) observe the breath.
 
Hi Bro!

It is nice to find guys at same age as i, 33 yo, and the same amont of years watching porn , more than 20 years, and simillar regullarity.

Now i'm at the best "shape" since a started the reboot at age 30.( yes more then 3 years strugling to stop the addiction).

  • Currently, I haven't watched porn at all for more than 3 and a half months ( it is my record so far).
  • In the last 2 months a just had masturbation 5 times. ( I experienced that cut off masturbation as much as possible, even without porn was really important for the healling .
  • And I've had sex with my GF for 13 times whiten the last 3 months with a really solids erection ( more solid then when a used to take ED pills).


Nice recovery to u bro!
 

Ayahuasca

New Member
Hi Bro!

It is nice to find guys at same age as i, 33 yo, and the same amont of years watching porn , more than 20 years, and simillar regullarity.

Now i'm at the best "shape" since a started the reboot at age 30.( yes more then 3 years strugling to stop the addiction).

  • Currently, I haven't watched porn at all for more than 3 and a half months ( it is my record so far).
  • In the last 2 months a just had masturbation 5 times. ( I experienced that cut off masturbation as much as possible, even without porn was really important for the healling .
  • And I've had sex with my GF for 13 times whiten the last 3 months with a really solids erection ( more solid then when a used to take ED pills).


Nice recovery to u bro!

That's amazing to hear, thanks for sharing man! Remember: this isn't a streak, porn is in the past. There is no option to go back. Good luck brother!
 
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