Hi Robby,
Im sorry to hear about your struggle. I also had a relapse a couple of days ago after a short stint sober and so I understand your frustration. Last year I had a 52 day streak and stupidly fell back in and since then I have been really struggling to get back to a healthy mindset. The important thing is that you aren't giving up and be patient with yourself because I am finding it can take time. The important thing isn't to binge. My latest relapse a couple of days ago lasted just one day and I am back focused, which is a big improvement from past attempts, which came after long periods of binging and so I take a lot of hope in that. I hope you will too. I read recently that recovery isn't linear, there will be some struggles along the way and a mixture of good and bad days to contend with. I hope this helps and I wish you all the luck in re-focusing to go again!
Cheers