I’m starting this journal, I want to provide my situations and advice. Things leaned along the way and also the idea of how to prevent relapse 100%, and come up with a solution to spread the word. Make it possible to teach kids what harm porn can cause before they even start to watch it.
You are using an out of date browser. It may not display this or other websites correctly.
You should upgrade or use an alternative browser.
You should upgrade or use an alternative browser.
Personal journey, daily updates and advice
- Thread starter Lyrch42
- Start date
Entry 1..
I can’t seem to pinpoint what day I’m actually on, I’m somewhere between 30-40 days PMO free. I’ve been in a flatline for what seems like forever but about 3 weeks. While I’m still experiencing that low libido(dead dick) it seems to be improving, I have morning wood very consistently and it’s always very strong, but during the day I feel dont have any arousal at all. Since I’ve talked to close family, a really close friend, and my significant other about the entire situation I feel as if that helped my flatline a little bit, it’s almost like there is no pressure, I’ve told my deepest secret, the one that would embarrass me the most. It’s kind of like having no ego. Like now I feel in a way free. Since this I feel asf if my junk isn’t lifeless, I still don’t have arousal a lot of the daytime, but I feel like blood flow has returned to the man downstairs. Instead of shrinking up and hiding, he’s just chilling down there now.
this might’ve been TMI, but I definitely felt like reaching out to the ones who matter most to me had a positive effect on me mentally and physically. Curious to see how it plays out.
I can’t seem to pinpoint what day I’m actually on, I’m somewhere between 30-40 days PMO free. I’ve been in a flatline for what seems like forever but about 3 weeks. While I’m still experiencing that low libido(dead dick) it seems to be improving, I have morning wood very consistently and it’s always very strong, but during the day I feel dont have any arousal at all. Since I’ve talked to close family, a really close friend, and my significant other about the entire situation I feel as if that helped my flatline a little bit, it’s almost like there is no pressure, I’ve told my deepest secret, the one that would embarrass me the most. It’s kind of like having no ego. Like now I feel in a way free. Since this I feel asf if my junk isn’t lifeless, I still don’t have arousal a lot of the daytime, but I feel like blood flow has returned to the man downstairs. Instead of shrinking up and hiding, he’s just chilling down there now.
this might’ve been TMI, but I definitely felt like reaching out to the ones who matter most to me had a positive effect on me mentally and physically. Curious to see how it plays out.
This would be my 2nd entry. I’m somewhere past the 90 day mark. Not to sure where at so I’ll just go with 92.
throughout my journey so far I’ve been lost. After suffering ED with my GF. I found this forum and decided to quit porn. I told my father, best friend, and gf about my situation and what I thought might be going on. They were all supportive and understanding. I’ll see my GF 2s a month and we usually try to engage sexually. Lately I’ve been struggling to perform still. I’ll get erect enough for penetration but if we try to switch positions or do something else I’ll immediately lose it. I’ve O”d with her probably 10 times throughout the past 3 months and another 6 times just by MO’d by myself. I have no desire to watch porn, and plan to never go back. I’m hoping I can reach a place where I’ve been before. Being able to sustain my full 100% standing erection. Feel 100% emotional connection with my partner, never doubt myself again.
I figured it might be good to actually journal my daily experiences and hope to see improvement!
throughout my journey so far I’ve been lost. After suffering ED with my GF. I found this forum and decided to quit porn. I told my father, best friend, and gf about my situation and what I thought might be going on. They were all supportive and understanding. I’ll see my GF 2s a month and we usually try to engage sexually. Lately I’ve been struggling to perform still. I’ll get erect enough for penetration but if we try to switch positions or do something else I’ll immediately lose it. I’ve O”d with her probably 10 times throughout the past 3 months and another 6 times just by MO’d by myself. I have no desire to watch porn, and plan to never go back. I’m hoping I can reach a place where I’ve been before. Being able to sustain my full 100% standing erection. Feel 100% emotional connection with my partner, never doubt myself again.
I figured it might be good to actually journal my daily experiences and hope to see improvement!
Hey man,This would be my 2nd entry. I’m somewhere past the 90 day mark. Not to sure where at so I’ll just go with 92.
throughout my journey so far I’ve been lost. After suffering ED with my GF. I found this forum and decided to quit porn. I told my father, best friend, and gf about my situation and what I thought might be going on. They were all supportive and understanding. I’ll see my GF 2s a month and we usually try to engage sexually. Lately I’ve been struggling to perform still. I’ll get erect enough for penetration but if we try to switch positions or do something else I’ll immediately lose it. I’ve O”d with her probably 10 times throughout the past 3 months and another 6 times just by MO’d by myself. I have no desire to watch porn, and plan to never go back. I’m hoping I can reach a place where I’ve been before. Being able to sustain my full 100% standing erection. Feel 100% emotional connection with my partner, never doubt myself again.
I figured it might be good to actually journal my daily experiences and hope to see improvement!
First of all congratulations on your streak! Keep up with good job.Secondly,I just want to ask you something: Why would you MO if you still struggle with sex sometimes ? Also if you can easily MO just to touch alone don't you think that anxiety might be the big reason of losing erection ?
Do you have some negative thoughts like "Oh,no,we are changing positions I will lose my erection" or "What if I lose it inside her?" or anything similar?
Yeah the main reason I began to MO because It had been nearly 75 days and I read something saying it might be healthy to MO if I could do it naturally, no assistance, eyes closed. Which I have been able to do. Which does lead me to think that I do probably suffer from a anxiety issue as well. Just doesn’t make sense because my gf has been so supportive and I don’t have any reason to worry. I’m currently attending therapy. Trying to look back on my past and see if there’s something that be playing a role as well