Carl Smith - Living Free

Carl_Smith

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Day 413

Remembering

Do I still remember some scenes from porn? Honestly, yes – but they are much less stimulating. It’s like an old, burnt cigarette, that generates a small amount of dopamine. What has been seen can’t be unseen, but it will get blurrier over time, and not dwelled upon.
 
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Carl_Smith

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Day 420

BEAUTY​

It doesn’t help you appreciate beauty. After years of looking for “new perfect 10s” that are “just your type” online, that thrill will become harder to find, and you’ll spend most of your time searching in frustration for something new. The hottest, most surgically enhanced (fake) women are now just ordinary to you.

Fixating on the naked, sexual parts of women dulls your ability to appreciate the beauty of their smile, or their eyes lighting up when they talk or laugh. After quitting porn, you will be amazed how beautiful real, average women are — even with their clothes on!
 

Carl_Smith

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Day 436

The stormy waves in my mind have changed into a smooth, still lake. It’s an amazing feeling of balance and contentment. I believe that smashing my brain with dopamine “junk food” was preventing me from finding this place, but this is where I want to stay.

I actually am in the best mental health in my life...
 

Carl_Smith

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Day 464 - Thanksgiving. What are you thankful for?

I'm thankful for the crazy mental energy and focus I've had since I quit porn and video game addiction.

I've spent the last week working on a new hobby website, writing a 2nd ebook, and learning new languages like TypeScript and modern web tech for mobile. This is going to be my new hobby for 2023.

The work has gone so well -- it hasn't been frustrating and I have patience when I get stuck. Honestly, I hope the work doesn't go too fast because then I'll be without a hobby again. It's hard finding enough things to occupy my brain, that don't depress me...

- C Smith
 

homerun

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So impressed to see Day 464 @Carl_Smith - I am on day 8, so sometimes I feel like i have a mountain to climb, but seeing posts like this makes me realize that I can do it as well, one day after the next, one foot after another.
 
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