Day 12 - another clean day as always now. Feeling great! I had a couple really cool realizations last night:
1) I’ve gone through practically every old trigger situation of mine with complete ease. While in the bathroom, while in traffic jams, getting back from a stressful day, coming back home, being alone late at night in bed, etc. These used to be the classic pitfalls of my past streaks. I always felt them coming around the corner and if I had a bad day, boom I would jump at the chance to feed the addiction. But now, I just say to myself “wow, crazy how this used to get me and now that’s all in the past.”
2) I also used to always give myself deadlines at this time of year. For example, my birthday is coming up and I used to always say “Once I’m 21, no more PMO for the rest of my life!” We all know how that turned out. Same with Christmas and New Years and beyond. But now I’m sitting here and realizing that I am actually going to reach all those milestones and be aligned with what I say. That’s an underrated emotion to follow through on the promises you make with yourself.
Life is really good right now gang. How are you all doing out there?