Hello, i am am a porn user that have been using for far too many years already. So many that i in fact dont know how many. 2 years ago i got a girlfriend and i said i would stop watching it, but i lied to her about it.
I would watch porn everyday, and sometimes just out of habit and not out of need. This leaded to me to be indifferent to all fellings that would make me feel good before.
My girlfriend finding out about my lying, have given me a wake up call i feel i needed. I would like to not just stop watching porn for my own sake, but to e better to all people i interact with. I feel i need to develop my own set of morals and reasons to be better than my former self, as that is something i have realized i often lack.
As of this day i have gone 48 days without watching porn, but i still think about it and i am afraid of relapsing.
I am not aware of any triggers but i sure hope i dont find any.
To distract my self i usually try learning a new language or just do something more generally productive. I am grateful for my days already free, and i am grateful for myself getting help finally.
I would watch porn everyday, and sometimes just out of habit and not out of need. This leaded to me to be indifferent to all fellings that would make me feel good before.
My girlfriend finding out about my lying, have given me a wake up call i feel i needed. I would like to not just stop watching porn for my own sake, but to e better to all people i interact with. I feel i need to develop my own set of morals and reasons to be better than my former self, as that is something i have realized i often lack.
As of this day i have gone 48 days without watching porn, but i still think about it and i am afraid of relapsing.
I am not aware of any triggers but i sure hope i dont find any.
To distract my self i usually try learning a new language or just do something more generally productive. I am grateful for my days already free, and i am grateful for myself getting help finally.
