I'm Jim and I'm 41 years old.
My first experience with webcam sites was 17 years ago.
It was porn related and also for finding a girlfriend.
Even back then I meet also a webcam girl - friend related.
She told me like you will find a girl even it is a webcam girl.
So I stayed on these sites.
After a while I was in love with a girl but she left the website. After a search on the internet I found out then that she was a nude model too.
I was angry and went to a lot of girls (porn related)
Then I had a kind of a reboot. Where I could stay away from the site and not buying much credits (or spending money on it)
Just before covid, I feeled lonely and started to use the camsite again.
I fall deeply in love with a girl. Everything went well for about 1 year.
But the promises are keeping coming and actually everything feels like a lie.
Since May 2021 I go to a psychologist almost weekly.
The love with that girl did go away - sometimes I go into her channel without spending any money.
It did not stop to spend money on other girls (more related with porn).
Even financially it goes very bad with me.
It is more like a depression, feeling loneliness and stress.
Social : In real life , im a social person but sometimes I miss to have a relationship.
When I was young, I did not go out. Because I was really afraid. (for a fight with another guy)
With other girls , I had no relationship because the girls say "I'm very nice, blabla" , sometimes they approach me the same way on camsites.
So that way I feel like that nobody loves me.
For a reboot : I think it would be a huge improvement to not spend any money anymore on that camsite.
Even the second thing is I should leave it.
But with covid it is really hard too.. to find new hobbies... or to meet anyone new. Okay there is a girl she wants to walk with me but she have a boyfriend already she just wants to help me. Because for everyone I feel depressed now.
I came across a few apps too like Brainbuddy and Reboot (I don't know if they are really good) and I made also a mindmap.
I play a few games for distraction and watching more movies.
That is a bit my story.
I feel that I sit in a rollercoaster and it goes down/up. (more down again the last week)
My first experience with webcam sites was 17 years ago.
It was porn related and also for finding a girlfriend.
Even back then I meet also a webcam girl - friend related.
She told me like you will find a girl even it is a webcam girl.
So I stayed on these sites.
After a while I was in love with a girl but she left the website. After a search on the internet I found out then that she was a nude model too.
I was angry and went to a lot of girls (porn related)
Then I had a kind of a reboot. Where I could stay away from the site and not buying much credits (or spending money on it)
Just before covid, I feeled lonely and started to use the camsite again.
I fall deeply in love with a girl. Everything went well for about 1 year.
But the promises are keeping coming and actually everything feels like a lie.
Since May 2021 I go to a psychologist almost weekly.
The love with that girl did go away - sometimes I go into her channel without spending any money.
It did not stop to spend money on other girls (more related with porn).
Even financially it goes very bad with me.
It is more like a depression, feeling loneliness and stress.
Social : In real life , im a social person but sometimes I miss to have a relationship.
When I was young, I did not go out. Because I was really afraid. (for a fight with another guy)
With other girls , I had no relationship because the girls say "I'm very nice, blabla" , sometimes they approach me the same way on camsites.
So that way I feel like that nobody loves me.
For a reboot : I think it would be a huge improvement to not spend any money anymore on that camsite.
Even the second thing is I should leave it.
But with covid it is really hard too.. to find new hobbies... or to meet anyone new. Okay there is a girl she wants to walk with me but she have a boyfriend already she just wants to help me. Because for everyone I feel depressed now.
I came across a few apps too like Brainbuddy and Reboot (I don't know if they are really good) and I made also a mindmap.
I play a few games for distraction and watching more movies.
That is a bit my story.
I feel that I sit in a rollercoaster and it goes down/up. (more down again the last week)