Gentlemen, yesterday was a good day. Work was the right amount of busy. Not so much to do that you want to rip your face off. Not so slow that…….you want to rip your face off. A nice amount to settle into a flow and produce.
left a bit early to pick her and our youngest son up. Dropped him off with my mom and she put unknown coordinates into the gps. All I did was follow where Siri told me to go. We ended up in a small little town about an hour away from home. Valet parking….oh shit ain’t we fancy. Anyways. We had a really nice dinner. Shrimp and lobster for me and pasta for her. After dinner we went to a glass blowing workshop. Glass blowing post-covid involves no actual blowing of glass, and the instructor helping us did the bulk of the work but it was cool as shit.
we came home to watch a movie. She’s a long sleeves and sweat pants to bed kind of girl. Tonight she was wearing my favorite black panties and a black semi-see through tank top. Omg she’s hot. All of a sudden, the thought occurred to me to stop fucking thinking so much. Which…..turns out was a good idea. I had to have her right then and there. I hadn’t felt that feeling in fucking years. I haven’t had the courage to actually initiate (confidently) with her since before erections we’re even an issue. For lack of a better description, I took her. Right there. On the spot. There was no viagra. There was no insane amount of foreplay just to get half a boner. Just her and my body’s reaction to her. The universe faded into the background and the only thing that existed was us. I know I’m supposed to be avoiding orgasm right now. But….that plan didn’t work out so great. My skills were not at all what they used to be and I did not last long enough for her to climax….or I should say, every time she would start getting close I would get too excited and have to stop to avoid finishing. Eventually, I couldn’t hold it in anymore.
We finally got around to our movie and went to bed.
Woke up this morning and we did it again. Yo….I don’t remember the last time we had sex before bed and in the morning without the lingering effects of sildenafil from the night before.
I’m not at all sure that having two orgasms in 6 hours was a good idea. I may be paying the price for that later. But right now I feel fucking great. She’s gone for the day at an event with our oldest. Gonna get some meditation in and get ready for the day.
There is not a doubt in my mind that we are going in the right direction. I’m sure there are hard days still ahead though.
These past hundred and however many days have been one of the strangest times of my life. Insane emotional ups and downs. Uncertainty and depression. Anxiety. Shriveled cock and fear. It’s been a ride.
Yesterday I woke up and felt horny for the first time in forever. Yesterday I felt like a man for the first time in forever. Yesterday I felt different than I’ve felt in a long time. Yesterday I felt like a husband to his wife. I’ve been waiting for that.
I’m sorry for the long ass post. Hopefully someone pulls some hope from this. It is possible to get better. I’m not there yet and I’ll probably be back here freaking out when these two orgasms I had send me into a huge flatline lol. But I am absolutely, 10000% without a doubt better than I was when I started this journey back in September.