Bro one suggestion.Here we are. No sex since the last post when I thought for sure it was coming. She got weirded out and some resentment about our situation bubbled to the surface. She’s angry that we’re here. MOST of the time she’s an angel and very supportive. This morning, she was kind and loving, but made it very clear that she’s unhappy about the situation and unhappy with me. She recoils a bit when I approach her with sexual energy. If we’re spooning and I get hard, she pulls away. If I try to get too touchy or kissy or whatever, she pulls away. This morning we were both kind of sleeping still, she was basically laying on me. I got hard…..as soon as I did she essentially jumped to the other side of the bed. Her confidence is shot and she blames me for it. I get it. I don’t blame her. But if you know our story and know how we got here, then you’d know that this is stirring up the same feelings in me that sent me to porn in the first place.
I spent the night last night frustrated and angry……and horny. I was mad AT her which isn’t helping anyone. I can tell that I’m very close to this whole problem being over. I easily get aroused by her touch. I’m all but certain my PIED is gone and the only thing I suffer from is performance anxiety. This shit isn’t helping. I feel like the only thing left that I need is some time where we can just focus on each other. More than one night. A weekend maybe. A moment where I can fail to get hard and then overcome it. A moment where we can take our time and I can practice fucking her like she was used to being fucked. How we we ever get that moment if she’s cynical and I’m aggravated?
I KNOW we’re doing the right things. We are strong. I KNOW we’re going to get better. It’s just aggravating how much this stupid fucking problem permeates into all facets of life. I carry it with me everywhere I go. I see in her eyes that she carries it with her too. Her face is different….or indifferent when she looks at me. That spark isn’t in her eyes. The tone of her voice is different when she speaks to me….business like and very matter of fact. No indications of love or attraction in the way she speaks to me. Her “I Love You Too’s” have become a mumbled, barely spoken “love you” only because that’s what you’re supposed to say when your husband says it first. I know I’m her person. I know she loves me. I don’t question that. I know we’re strong and will get better. But right now we’re in a valley and this valley can eat a whole big bag of dicks.
Has it ever occurred to you that she might be having some issue with her own body or psychology, that causes her to pull away from you the moment she feels your erect dick?
What's her age? Is she having menopause or something like that? Any disorders that cause imbalance of hormones?
Coz I have read at multiple places that hormonal imbalance can lead to women losing interest in sex.