Struggling To Break Free

Miltiades PS

New Member
Hello guys,
I don't really know what to say. I've struggled with this addiction for over half my life. I am currently 17 years of age, first introduced to porn around age 7. Most wouldn't really consider what I was exposed to as porn since it was only a women's underwear magazine, but it drove me to look for more. I eventually was able to find hardcore porn on the internet and started looking at porn for hours. At this point, I had no idea what masturbation was and simply stared at porn pictures. Simply looking at porn was manageable, I could control myself, but then I learned to masturbate, and ever since I have had no control. I can't break away from porn for 4 days. I always fail to break away from it. I'm failing at everything, and I can't say focused at all. Everything from hobbies to my homework I am failing in, because I cannot stay focused.

I just want it to end.
 

Jg1985

Member
Try settling goals, so you can go 3 days without, try and double it, so try and stay off for 6 days, once you have done 6 days try and double that, 12 days, once you hit that double again, and if you fail, but worry, try again, and again. Good luck
 

Carl_Smith

Active Member
Hey Miltiades. I have a challenge for you. Read this site 15 minutes, 2 x a week, for 4 weeks. https://flying-eagle-method.org/ Every week, take notes on what you read and what you thought. I just care about your thoughts, not actions.

I call it the Flying Eagle Challenge. I really hope it gets you into a great mindset. You want to break free? You want to soar? I think this guide can show you. It is how I escaped.
 
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John_Fries

New Member
Hello guys,
I don't really know what to say. I've struggled with this addiction for over half my life. I am currently 17 years of age, first introduced to porn around age 7. Most wouldn't really consider what I was exposed to as porn since it was only a women's underwear magazine, but it drove me to look for more. I eventually was able to find hardcore porn on the internet and started looking at porn for hours. At this point, I had no idea what masturbation was and simply stared at porn pictures. Simply looking at porn was manageable, I could control myself, but then I learned to masturbate, and ever since I have had no control. I can't break away from porn for 4 days. I always fail to break away from it. I'm failing at everything, and I can't say focused at all. Everything from hobbies to my homework I am failing in, because I cannot stay focused.

I just want it to end.
Hey, your story sounds eerily similar to mine, my friend. I was exposed at 9 and I'm currently 18 and still trying to fully heal. Like you, I had no idea what masturbation was and once I did I became addicted to the hormone release that I got from it. For almost a decade now I have been consuming pornography and masturbating very frequently. I never realized how bad it was until I tried going without both (I lasted only 2 days). I wasn't fulfilled in myself and was destroying my relationships. I wasn't becoming who I wanted to be and pornography was controlling every moment that I wasn't doing anything. It filled every thought, void, and action especially when I was alone and didn't have things to do. I have been trying to heal from my addiction for two years now and I can finally say that I am free. I have relapsed several, several times since the beginning of that two years and it really hasn't been until these past two months that I have been able to 100% give up my addiction. Going to therapy specifically for my addiction really helped me get and stay on the path towards healing. You have to truly want healing, Friend. You have to want to give it up more than you want to give in. Addiction recovery is not easy and you have to put in the work each and every day. Check out Fortify (its an app) if you don't have it. They have daily activities and communities to help you in recovery. I would also highly recommend trying to find a therapist to go to if at all possible. Recovery is right around the corner, you just have to reach out, hold on, and never let go. Freedom is real. Please reach out to me if you want someone to talk to or just be accountable with.
 

og123xx

Member
Hello guys,
I don't really know what to say. I've struggled with this addiction for over half my life. I am currently 17 years of age, first introduced to porn around age 7. Most wouldn't really consider what I was exposed to as porn since it was only a women's underwear magazine, but it drove me to look for more. I eventually was able to find hardcore porn on the internet and started looking at porn for hours. At this point, I had no idea what masturbation was and simply stared at porn pictures. Simply looking at porn was manageable, I could control myself, but then I learned to masturbate, and ever since I have had no control. I can't break away from porn for 4 days. I always fail to break away from it. I'm failing at everything, and I can't say focused at all. Everything from hobbies to my homework I am failing in, because I cannot stay focused.

I just want it to end.
Well done for taking the first step by joining this forum. You've got this man
 

og123xx

Member
Hey, your story sounds eerily similar to mine, my friend. I was exposed at 9 and I'm currently 18 and still trying to fully heal. Like you, I had no idea what masturbation was and once I did I became addicted to the hormone release that I got from it. For almost a decade now I have been consuming pornography and masturbating very frequently. I never realized how bad it was until I tried going without both (I lasted only 2 days). I wasn't fulfilled in myself and was destroying my relationships. I wasn't becoming who I wanted to be and pornography was controlling every moment that I wasn't doing anything. It filled every thought, void, and action especially when I was alone and didn't have things to do. I have been trying to heal from my addiction for two years now and I can finally say that I am free. I have relapsed several, several times since the beginning of that two years and it really hasn't been until these past two months that I have been able to 100% give up my addiction. Going to therapy specifically for my addiction really helped me get and stay on the path towards healing. You have to truly want healing, Friend. You have to want to give it up more than you want to give in. Addiction recovery is not easy and you have to put in the work each and every day. Check out Fortify (its an app) if you don't have it. They have daily activities and communities to help you in recovery. I would also highly recommend trying to find a therapist to go to if at all possible. Recovery is right around the corner, you just have to reach out, hold on, and never let go. Freedom is real. Please reach out to me if you want someone to talk to or just be accountable with.
Hi, thanks for sharing your story. I have had bad experiences with therapists regarding porn because none of them have taken me seriously because of my shame to admit I had a problem! Do you have any advice about how to get the most out of therapy regarding porn?
 
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Hi, thanks for sharing your story. I have had bad experiences with therapists regarding porn because none of them have taken me seriously because of my shame to admit I had a problem! Do you have any advice about how to get the most out of therapy regarding porn?
I had the same problem at first with a couple of different therapists, then I came across a woman therapist whos had plenty of experience with different addictions including porn. She helped me realize that it was due to some early life trauma that I didnt realize had effected me and from there on it was all uphill
 
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