cookiemonster
Active Member
Day 49 clean. 7 weeks!
I'm really proud to be this far into the reboot. The 7 week mark shows that there has been plenty of times when I've been challenged and still managed to come out on top.
I woke up with pretty solid morning wood for the 3rd day in a row.
Things have been tough the last week or so. Honestly it comes down to distraction. I know I have so much potential and when I'm on my A-game I can make such a positive impact on the lives of people around me. Although, this past week I've instead just been wasting my time on my phone.
Urges have been slightly elevated these past few days too.
All of that being said, I am just so happy that the streak is alive and well and I'm moving forward with keeping porn out of my life. Even if I have a bad day, I find solace in the fact that I'm beating porn addiction.
I think things are going to get better and better slowly and steadily. The mid-semester break is over so I'll be busy going to uni again which will keep me on track. And everything which has been getting me down is entirely in my control, I have the ability to stop wasting time on my phone and it's time to do just that. My health is good and the health of my loved ones is good, so life is good!
Tomorrow we will hit 50 days, that's pretty cool. And then in one week we will hit 2 months! That's awesome. Then 3 months and 100 days! That will be a huge achievement. I look forward to that. That will coincide with the end of the semester and it would be a great way to finish.
The girlfriend question will resolve itself. I'll keep being social and flirting with girls in person. I'm not going to download a dating app because it ends up just becoming a p-sub. Unfortunately I'll have to do things the hard old-fashioned way, exciting!
Today the goal is no porn, no p-subs and no engaging in any activities or thoughts which I can feel deep down stimulate the neurological pathways I am working to weaken each and every day. I am also not going to touch my dick unless peeing.
Today I have another goal which I cannot afford to miss. It's the same goal as yesterday but yesterday I didn't manage to follow through. I am not using my phone until after dinner. The only exception is if I go for a walk, I'm allowed to listen to a specific educational podcast.
The rules are simple and clear. I am committing to these goals this morning and my criteria for success today is to achieve these goals.
Fuck pornography, fuck everything in this world which seeks to exploit our biology and psychology to steal our attention and purpose in life for their monetary gain. That means social media. That means games on the phone. That most certainly means the porn industry.
I'm terrified of fucking this up and not being strong enough. All that I have to focus on is today.
See you tonight or tomorrow morning, keep me accountable. Thanks for all of your support, I read every message here on my journal, often multiple times.
FUCK PORN!
I'm really proud to be this far into the reboot. The 7 week mark shows that there has been plenty of times when I've been challenged and still managed to come out on top.
I woke up with pretty solid morning wood for the 3rd day in a row.
Things have been tough the last week or so. Honestly it comes down to distraction. I know I have so much potential and when I'm on my A-game I can make such a positive impact on the lives of people around me. Although, this past week I've instead just been wasting my time on my phone.
Urges have been slightly elevated these past few days too.
All of that being said, I am just so happy that the streak is alive and well and I'm moving forward with keeping porn out of my life. Even if I have a bad day, I find solace in the fact that I'm beating porn addiction.
I think things are going to get better and better slowly and steadily. The mid-semester break is over so I'll be busy going to uni again which will keep me on track. And everything which has been getting me down is entirely in my control, I have the ability to stop wasting time on my phone and it's time to do just that. My health is good and the health of my loved ones is good, so life is good!
Tomorrow we will hit 50 days, that's pretty cool. And then in one week we will hit 2 months! That's awesome. Then 3 months and 100 days! That will be a huge achievement. I look forward to that. That will coincide with the end of the semester and it would be a great way to finish.
The girlfriend question will resolve itself. I'll keep being social and flirting with girls in person. I'm not going to download a dating app because it ends up just becoming a p-sub. Unfortunately I'll have to do things the hard old-fashioned way, exciting!
Today the goal is no porn, no p-subs and no engaging in any activities or thoughts which I can feel deep down stimulate the neurological pathways I am working to weaken each and every day. I am also not going to touch my dick unless peeing.
Today I have another goal which I cannot afford to miss. It's the same goal as yesterday but yesterday I didn't manage to follow through. I am not using my phone until after dinner. The only exception is if I go for a walk, I'm allowed to listen to a specific educational podcast.
The rules are simple and clear. I am committing to these goals this morning and my criteria for success today is to achieve these goals.
Fuck pornography, fuck everything in this world which seeks to exploit our biology and psychology to steal our attention and purpose in life for their monetary gain. That means social media. That means games on the phone. That most certainly means the porn industry.
I'm terrified of fucking this up and not being strong enough. All that I have to focus on is today.
See you tonight or tomorrow morning, keep me accountable. Thanks for all of your support, I read every message here on my journal, often multiple times.
FUCK PORN!
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