Completely out of nowhere I slipped. Am I disappointed? Yes. Am I devastated? No.
It's a bump in the road that I will learn from. Previous attempts would have seen me feeling awful, low, depressed, then resetting the counter and vowing never again. Not this time. The counter continues and I move forward on exactly the same path - I don't start it again. I've seen so many posts on here of people vowing they will never do it again. They post regularly in the early days, share their successes, how hard it is, how they get through temptations.... Then they go silent. My guess is they have slipped, feel ashamed and try to avoid the thing they joined this amazing forum for in the first place - support.
I'm human. I'm addicted. I slipped. The addicted part if my brain wants me to feel low about that so it can crush me and then offer the solution.
I won't.i will do the opposite. I will do what my enemy doesn't want me to: To feel pride, self respect, inner calm and, most importantly, to carry on from where I am. Not start again