Day 12: I joined this forum 10 days ago but my back story first...
It goes back to when I was 10 year old. I was introduced to the idea of sex and porn for the first time then. I have a strict parent (not that I blame them for anything anymore) and soon I found my escape in porn. I used to watch porn and masturbate around three times per day for a long time. I was a smart kid back then but was always fatigued and had low energy. Used to fall asleep in my class but still managed to do decently in academics. This continued for a few years.
I come from a small town and was not very active with women though my friends did get involved but I didn't.
Fast forward to college days still the same low energy and enthusiasm was a bit depressed too. Lost my virginity on my 20th birthday in a massage parlor which I didn't enjoy probably due to PMO it was the first time I realised I had a problem. It did happen a few more times until I came across a video on YouTube( more than 3 years ago) about porn and its side effects. And Since then I don't remember how but I developed an interest in personal development. Have been trying since then to stop PMO but max could go upto 2months then haven't gone more than 10 days without pmo.
Fast forward today.
Last month went to a massage parlor( had sexual encounter after 2 years) had pe and did not enjoy anything and decided to put an end to PMO once and for all. Going to the city tomorrow and all I could think of is the massage parlour. I know I shouldn't be doing it but I don't know what am I going to do.
Please be free to share your thoughts.
It goes back to when I was 10 year old. I was introduced to the idea of sex and porn for the first time then. I have a strict parent (not that I blame them for anything anymore) and soon I found my escape in porn. I used to watch porn and masturbate around three times per day for a long time. I was a smart kid back then but was always fatigued and had low energy. Used to fall asleep in my class but still managed to do decently in academics. This continued for a few years.
I come from a small town and was not very active with women though my friends did get involved but I didn't.
Fast forward to college days still the same low energy and enthusiasm was a bit depressed too. Lost my virginity on my 20th birthday in a massage parlor which I didn't enjoy probably due to PMO it was the first time I realised I had a problem. It did happen a few more times until I came across a video on YouTube( more than 3 years ago) about porn and its side effects. And Since then I don't remember how but I developed an interest in personal development. Have been trying since then to stop PMO but max could go upto 2months then haven't gone more than 10 days without pmo.
Fast forward today.
Last month went to a massage parlor( had sexual encounter after 2 years) had pe and did not enjoy anything and decided to put an end to PMO once and for all. Going to the city tomorrow and all I could think of is the massage parlour. I know I shouldn't be doing it but I don't know what am I going to do.
Please be free to share your thoughts.