Thank you so much for the kind words. Wishing you well also.Congratulations, Jswizzle, on 100+ days free from porn! You're now in 'tripple-digit' territory!
You're doing an awesome job in changing your life! Your self-knowledge is key, and it sounds like in this area, your self-awareness is getting sharper and sharper, and you'll start seeing fundamental change on a deeper (emotional) level. You'll be that man your wife and family needs, just be patient with yourself.
Have you ever seen a sign that says, "Don't touch, Wet Paint!" and after that, you wanted to touch it? Same here with MO. It's easy for someone to say, "Don't do that!" But, don't sweat it, brother. You know what you want and why you're here. It's always impressive to see you nailing it in this area, too, even if sometimes it's a struggle.
There's a difference between someone 'white-knuckling' it, always on the verge, and someone who's relaxing into their abstinence. By 'relaxing' I don't mean complacency, but knowing what you want and going for it, without constantly looking over your shoulder.
You got it, brother! Wishing you the best.