Yes, i'm 100% sure that only stopping porn solves SOOOOOO MANY issues men are having these days. I did not know that 13 days ago, but now i'm so fucking sure that it has caused all my problems. I'm showing very strong signs of recovery that it has to be just because quiting porn and fapping. I'm pretty sure Mando too has issues due to porn. Fetish is so strong that nothing else seem interresting anymore.
It's fucking scary to realize dick is not working like it was supposed to and libido is gone. First thing what man tells himself is "i have irreversible erectile dysfunction, i cannot be cured, i will always be impotent". But give it some time and witness the power of nofap!!
first off, congratulations on 2 weeks dude! That’s amazing. Remember when 2 weeks seemed crazy? that’s proof you can keep going. Porn is evil. Both my wife and I thought it was normal. She knew I watched. She’d even watch with me sometimes. We didn’t realize it was porn that was causing my problems for almost 10 months. Thought “we’ll, you ARE 40 afterall”. Saw my dr. When I told him I could still get it up by myself but not with my wife he took that as a good sign, called it performance anxiety and gave me viagra. He was surprised 6 months later when I told him the pill didn’t always work. He didn’t ask about porn and I didn’t think to mention it.
something I’ve learned is that it is not a straight line to victory. When you think you’re fixed, you probably aren’t. I’ve read, and experienced that it slowly gets better then worse then better and worse….slowly getting better over time. I thought I was “cured” once. Wrote all about how I was fixed in my journal. I was wrong as fuck.
I’m about 94ish days in now and I HAVE MO’d a handful of times, but have been pretty strictly hard mode for several weeks at this point. We had successful (not good) sex a handful of times after about a month/45 days and then it broke again. I was devastated. I thought we did it too much one Sunday (3 times), but the more thought I put into it the more I realized it was a combination of cumming too much too soon, and I the fact that I started habitually surfing Instagram, grabbing hits of dopamine when an instaslut would shake her ass for the camera. Fatal mistake. Anyways, my dick broke again and I went into my first real flatline. I just started to feel like I’m beginning to come out of it.
flatline Is scary as shit. The worst! You feel like everything sucks and like you’ll never have an erect penis again. I was going over speeches in my head of me telling her that if she had to look outside our marriage to get satisfaction that I would understand. I felt about as far away from a being man as possible. I started cold showers and exercising. Cold showers really seem to be helping. I noticed that after 30 seconds or so I can relax….then after 45 you get a wave of pain….then you get high as fuck for a short period of time. Lol. the past two days I’ve laughed uncontrollably after cold shower just because I felt good. I’m sure the exercise is helping, but I do not think I’m really doing enough to make a noticeable difference. My schedule doesn’t allow for large blocks of time so I break it up into 20 push ups and 20 squats per day, 4 or 5 times a day. im not sure it’s enough but it can’t hurt. A chill and relaxing yoga class once a week...most weeks.
This morning, I woke up early. She’s still asleep. This USED to be my time to jerk off w my iPad. I dont even think about that shit anymore. Anyways. Morning wood. Good sign. I laid there for awhile and it went away. Rolled over and put my hand on her waist and at some point my hand brushed up against her bush area and my dick immediately went 100% hard. I didn’t push any further. I did lay there and enjoy it for a bit. It felt amazing! My body reacted to my wife! It felt the way it did years ago before this was ever a problem! It felt unforced and organic. I might head upstairs in a little bit and see what happens. It’s been two weeks since an unsuccessful attempt. Im kind of terrified to ruin this good vibe though by trying and failing. That would send me into a spiral of depression right before Christmas. Damn….I wish this had never become a thing in our lives guys.
well Gentlemen, I take this morning as a sure sign that this is working. I’m getting more confident in my ability to have sex every day. I’m afraid to try because we’ve failed so many times. But I’m telling you I am WAY better now then I was 3 months ago. If I hadn’t stumbled there at the half way mark who knows where I’d be now. I dont regret this at all.
You guys are doing awesome. keep posting on how y’all are doing.
