13 days. That doesn't sound like a very important milestone but prior to 2022, in all my years of use I had only gone longer than 12 days one time. Without painfully scanning this whole journal, by memory I believe this is the 4th time crossing that threshold in 2022, with one of them being 66 days.
I have a long way to go in my journey, and there have certainly been slips and steps backwards, but from January 2 until now is easily the longest consecutive period I have gone without throwing in the towel and saying I will just deal with this problem "when I an ready".
I would have liked to have an unbroken streak from January 2 until now without any form of use, but the most important thing is that I am moving forward. I used to feel an urge to use every time I felt stressed. Sometimes when I was very stressed during work (I work from home) I would even go use in the middle of the day. Sometimes I was even late to calls because of it. I used when I was tired and I used when I was bored. Some weeks I would only use a couple of times, some weeks every single day. I couldn't fall asleep without at the very least fantasizing, but quite often I would use so I could sleep. I had gotten so used to not having any morning wood that it was somewhat shocking when I did.
Now I do not remember when the last time was that I used to deal with my stress. I no longer regularly use when I am bored or tired (and I have been tired quite a bit lately due to sickness and some sleep problems). I really only feel urges when I wake up in the middle of the night, but even that has become faint. I wake up with morning wood of some degree consistently enough that now I notice when I don't.
I feel mentally healthier and stronger than I have in a long time. At 36 I am finally learning to deal with my stress in healthy ways instead of running off to a fantasyland. I've got a long ways to go, and I regret the period of self deception just before this current run, but there is only forward. And overall I have been moving forward a lot lately.
Thank you all for the support.