I am 59 and for several years now I have been trying to quit porn and other forms of sexual stimulations which have led to sexual dysfunction, addiction and depression.
I would like to share my story...
I have been sexual from my earlier teens when I started masturbating to, back in the 70s, lingerie catalogue and occasional nude pictures. Then at the age of 15 I had my first girlfriend and my first sexual intercourse...although nervousness prevented me from getting hard once I would attemp penetration but it eventually all worked out. I think it was the perfect way to discover sexuality bc we were both virgins, very much in love and full of vigor.
After 7 years together and some exploration with other girls in college, I moved to California from France, my country of origin. During those 7 years I never had any problems with erections or ejaculations, either during sex or masturbation.
I met a woman in the US and decided to break up with my French gf and moved permanently to California. Fast forward 15 years when the internet was born. Although I had been seeing other women I discovered how easily it became to hook up on line (first website was called sexyads) and started having sexual affairs more frequently. In the meantime, my use of porn increased either through videos, sex-shops and eventually high speed internet. I would frequently masturbate for a couple hours but everything seemed normal.
I started noticing that it was "harder" to get a super firm erection and started using Viagra for some help. The very first symptom that worried me was the fact that I was with this hot woman and when she gave me a handjob....I had an orgasm but...nothing came out! This was probably 18 years ago and I've never had a proper ejaculation since!
I continued my daily porn watching as well as exploration with women, men, transgender and groups.
It is now 2021 and i cannot get a firm erection without viagra and if I ejaculate, nothing comes out or some small amount oozes out. My orgasms now seem mild or somehow numb...
I met this younger beautiful woman 8 months ago and have told her everything. I stopped porn mostly and not seeing anybody but her. I'm down to using one viagra pill and we can have sex, although my erections come and go and my orgasms are still sort of numb. I am back in France and have not seen her for two weeks...no libido, limp biscuit, anxiety...what is going on?
Hey Rico, have you tried doing Kegel exercises? They've worked wonders for me for erection strength, and can improve my libido to some extent, I think due to the increased muscle growth stimulating more blood flow to the area. I can give you more specific details if you're interested
I'm not sure how your life is, but I've noticed a real drop off in libido for myself this past year, which I put down a lot to becoming more isolated and stressed due to the whole covid fiasco, could that have been a factor in the changes for you?