2 years later, im back

mmo

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Good morning and happy new year everyone.

I am writing this post to inform you about my experience.
I am a 20 year old boy. Well physically, that he apparently does not have intercourse and sexual problems. And that's one of the scariest things.

My journey started at the age of 15/16, when I was in my first time with a beutiful woman, and I realized that I could not get an erection. I felt so nervous that I thought that was why I couldn't have sex this time. 2 weeks later we tried again and ended up the same.

At that moment I felt so bad and so upset, and I started searching the internet for why this was happening to me. I came across the book Your Brain on Porn, this community, and the NoFap community, and realized that I had a serious problem with porn and masturbation.

I started watching porn at 11/12 years old and, from the age of 14, more or less, I watched porn and masturbated once or twice a day, non-stop. I started consuming normal porn, but years later I started consuming all kinds of porn, including hardcore porn (which I read is terrible for PIED because you get too excited).

I Tried NoFap for 2 years at the age of 17 and no porn, with a little success but a lot of effort and a few failures.
I was on the mend when Covid started and the home confinement began.
I relapsed into my previous life by watching a lot of porn, masturbating a lot, and started cybersex, which in my opinion is worse and more addictive than porn. (Don't ever do it).

When all that was over and we were able to go out on the streets again, I was 19 years old and I met a lot of girls, at parties and not at parties. Unfortunately, even if the girls were amazing, even I was in their beds, in a pool or whatever, I kept feeling like I couldn't get an erection.
I started to think that it was a mental trauma that blocked my mind and I could not do anything.
I felt so bad, and I started to cut down on porn consumption and the number of weekly masturbations naturally, just because I felt bad.

I started meeting a girl regularly, so I didn't have the need to watch porn and masturbate on a daily basis, even weekly.
I couldn't have sex with this girl either, but I started to get erections, first small erections and then bigger ones.
One night I tried to have sex with her, but unfortunately at the biggest moment my mind locked up and the erection went down. That was horrible for both of us and I felt so bad and so upset, and I thought this would haunt me for life.
The amount of porn I saw was zero and I didn't masturbate in weeks, and I still couldn't have sex with a girl that I really liked.

I continued like this, avoiding pornography and masturbation and 2 weeks later I was able to finish the penetration successfully.
It is true that the sex was not of quality, and I ended up so fast, but it is something that I have to improve. At least I had sex, which was the biggest trauma I've ever had in life.

Now I have to ask you what I have to do to improve the maintenance of a good erection during sex, and also what I have to do to try not to ejaculate so quickly.
I installed an app, called DrKegel, that works on Kegel to prevent erectile dysfunction problems and those kinds of problems. But all help is welcome.

Thank you all for reading my story, I hope it will be useful if you find yourself in my situation, and remember never to give up.
The road is very difficult but stay away from porn. It is one of the greatest evils in our society.
 
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