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Anacott_Steel

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hi, this is guy from Spain, 33y, i have been an addict from the last 12 y, but the last year it get worse, and start edging almost every day for long hours, and struggle to have an erection with my gf or even only MO, i only get a hard erection with P, my gf is not actually aware about this problem (sometimes i took pills), im really afraid about loosing her, Despite i start this journal today is actually my day 23, last week i got some good MW, but yesterday struggle getting an E with only MO, however finally achieved it, it was really complicated without porn, last night anxiety and insomnia and no MW.
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 24:

no mw today, i had slept better bad again but better than yesterday, i d like watch to porn to get hard again but will keep strong. Less anxiety than yesterday, feelings than my pennis is died, have anyone feel the same?
 
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Marty

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Hey, I’ve been masturbating since 8 years old and have had issues all my life (now getting towards 60).
Only now have I been able to feel it is under control and since April last year have only lapsed 2 times.
So just keeping trying, and if you do lapse DO NOT binge!
Don’t feel think “what’s the use, this is who I am”.
Just remember the work and progress you have made and continue building on it.
It does get easier but make sure you know your ‘triggers’ and plan what you’ll do if you feel the Urge starting.
Finally, just want to say Well Done for making the effort…👍
 
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Marty

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Sorry just to add…talk to your girlfriend and confide in her. You’ll be amazed at how she reacts as she will know how difficult the subject is. As soon as you do that then the pressure to perform goes away and you can relax. Then just let it happen naturally…it will..👍👍
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 29:

im afraid because i feel my dick lifeless, even shrinked, no mw in two days, have anyone felt the same ? Help me out please
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 30:

first milestone achieved, im feeling mentally fine, despite my Dick and balls very small and shrinked and libido below zero, im focused in sports and even i dont have thougths or flashes about P.

yesterday i tried to have sex with my gf and i couldnt so i decided to told her this problem and she understood.

keep going on this!
 
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jberg

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Anacott, I'm on day 26 myself. I'm not sure if it's just my imagination, but I think I can actually feel changes in my brain as I am backing off from lusting after strangers I see in public and from porn. I've read other posts here where it took guys anywhere between 100 days to 1 year to get fully recovered. I'm going to give this a try for one year, to see how I feel. If I find that I'm much happier with PMO than I am having normal, healthy sex with my wife, then I'll go back to PMO. I'm pretty sure it will still be out there waiting for me.
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 32:

still with low libido, yesterday i was tempted to use P because of my dead dick but finally i avoid it. Last night i was touching my gf and get an erection bit i did not try have sex, it was not 100% but 80%. Today i feel with more energy i guess that i should trust the process
 
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Anacott_Steel

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jberg said:
Anacott, I'm on day 26 myself. I'm not sure if it's just my imagination, but I think I can actually feel changes in my brain as I am backing off from lusting after strangers I see in public and from porn. I've read other posts here where it took guys anywhere between 100 days to 1 year to get fully recovered. I'm going to give this a try for one year, to see how I feel. If I find that I'm much happier with PMO than I am having normal, healthy sex with my wife, then I'll go back to PMO. I'm pretty sure it will still be out there waiting for me.
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For sure it worth it. Do it for her and for you as well!. Im pretty sure that we wouldnt be happier with PMO
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 33:
my dick has recover his regular size yesterday, also i had this morning a semi mw (50%), on the other side i feel more energy and less anxiety. Little improvements i guess!
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 36,
Yesterday i had sex despite my sexual drive is still gone, it was not too hard and finish very quick.. however this morning i get a good mw hard and persistent. I still have also swing moods.. have you ever had the same symptoms?
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 37:
I see light at the end of the tunnel, yesterday i had successful sex with my gf, my sensitivity in my dick has increase, and my libido has return as well, i think i should keep working because the best is yet to come but there is a good improvement, also i had a good mw today.
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 39:

perfect sex last night without pills and strong mw this morning, just to clarify doubts: this actually works! Maybe works early for me beause i do a lot of sport and have a very healthy life. Keep going!
 
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Anacott_Steel

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Day 135:

I feel bad again, i had difficulties again to reach and mantain an erection and my libido is very low, i had often have sex these 3 months and apparently orgasms keeps me in flatline (twice a week) in easter had good sex and a wet dream, after that lost of libido and lack of mw

troubles with my gf again bc when i achieve an erection i come very fast. I also recalculate my strike due i use porn subtitutes at the end of december

I started to think i have anything else such as venous leak or something bc also mw went away 2 weeks ago.

I feel very afraid sad and desperate

Anyone can advice?

thank you
 
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