This, from this day forth, is my 1 year goal; it is my 10 year goal.
Thanks for reading my journal.
I've spent I think the last 10 years, on and off, trying to quit porn. So many promises, relapses, lies and angst. So much wasted time.
I've used a journal before a few years ago, however I've long forgotten where I had posted. So I'll use this as my journal from now on.
Reading the "Hello Gentlemen. Now we begin." post has given me some inspiration. I'm also reading "the porn trap" and working through the exercises, which I can sporadically post into this Journal.
I hope this Journal both allows me to connect with and support others here (fighting the secret, solo nature that porn use thrives in) as well as keeping me motivated and on track to achieving my goal, as titled...
I have found I have little trouble reaching up to two weeks of no use, but it's at this point that the urges creep up on me and I am overwhelmed. Often, it seems some innocuous use or release ... and then slowly, sometimes over days, I'll fall back into old habits. I doubt I am alone in this.
The Hello Gentlemen post refers to three things: Get Educated, Get Tools, Learn to Love Withdrawals. I guess I have a lot of work in learning to love withdrawals. And in being ready to deal with the withdrawals. Embracing them. Seeing them as a sign that I am winning.
Hopefully knowing the positive truth under the withdrawal pain will tip my endeavour in my favour this time.
It's day one for me, btw.
Thanks for reading my journal.
I've spent I think the last 10 years, on and off, trying to quit porn. So many promises, relapses, lies and angst. So much wasted time.
I've used a journal before a few years ago, however I've long forgotten where I had posted. So I'll use this as my journal from now on.
Reading the "Hello Gentlemen. Now we begin." post has given me some inspiration. I'm also reading "the porn trap" and working through the exercises, which I can sporadically post into this Journal.
I hope this Journal both allows me to connect with and support others here (fighting the secret, solo nature that porn use thrives in) as well as keeping me motivated and on track to achieving my goal, as titled...
I have found I have little trouble reaching up to two weeks of no use, but it's at this point that the urges creep up on me and I am overwhelmed. Often, it seems some innocuous use or release ... and then slowly, sometimes over days, I'll fall back into old habits. I doubt I am alone in this.
The Hello Gentlemen post refers to three things: Get Educated, Get Tools, Learn to Love Withdrawals. I guess I have a lot of work in learning to love withdrawals. And in being ready to deal with the withdrawals. Embracing them. Seeing them as a sign that I am winning.
Hopefully knowing the positive truth under the withdrawal pain will tip my endeavour in my favour this time.
It's day one for me, btw.
