Porn is not an option

Freerider

Active Member
Day 333


Yes, it sure does fly by.

Nothing too crazy. Since Thanksgiving I've been working on eating at a maintenance calorie intake and because I have more energy at the moment, I'll be working out pretty hard the next few weeks. It's really nice to have more energy and I forget what that extra boost can give you during a workout. It was fun letting loose a little over last week, especially on Thursday (even drank a little more wine than usual) but I tell you what, both of us are ready to get back to our normal eating/drinking habits. It's nice to feel that difference where we've made a substantial enough change in our habits when it comes to eating and drinking, that now it's only fun for so long and then you want to go back to your normal habits. I like that very much.

Also, tomorrow is eleven months! :cool:

Best brother.
333! Thats cool! Great job!
 

Freerider

Active Member
Day 326


Thanks man, it's feeling pretty sweet at the moment. I officially saw 19.0% today, so I'm real close to my goal but we'll see if I actually get to 18.9% or whatever by Thanksgiving, but at this point I'm happy with my results. :cool:

I've incorporated something this last week from Atomic Habits which has had interesting results. In my last reading he mentioned specifying certain tasks for certain digital devices only, thus, funny enough, I decided to check RN only on my computer from now on and not use my phone anymore. This has been great but has definitely thrown me off. I didn't realize how many random moments throughout the day I would check up on RN. I guess it was a weird compulsive habit of mine. See I told you guys I'm compulsive! Anyway, without doing that anymore, my reading time has been dramatically improved with more focus. I talk with my girl with more concentration, and when I stretch I decided to use that time to actually breathe and not look at my phone (imagine that).

You all have a great porn-free Monday.

"You should be far more concerned with your current trajectory than with your current results."

- James Clear
Great thoughs here, i have to read more RN..
 

Blondie

Respected Member
Day 334

I feel very happy being here today at eleven months. My brain feels clean and I can't wait to see where else this improvement takes me. I've really enjoyed over the last month reading Atomic Habits and incorporating whatever I can into my life that is beneficial to me. I'm definitely a believer in small changes because that's where it's at. We can't wish ourselves to be different people, we can only deal with the reality that is before us. What is more, this reality will be different for each individual too and should not be compared to another man. A man who used to look at porn every day of his life is a better man, who now only looks at it once a week.

Never give up.
Great thoughs here, i have to read more RN..
Thanks brother! Congrats again on your awesome success. :cool:
 

GBS

Respected Member
I'm definitely a believer in small changes because that's where it's at. We can't wish ourselves to be different people, we can only deal with the reality that is before us. What is more, this reality will be different for each individual too and should not be compared to another man.
Yet another gem from you, my friend. Class.
 

Blondie

Respected Member
Day 337

He’s the Atomic Habits guy, right? I should look this up.
Yes sir. It's been a great book so far. There's many self-improvement books out there that are kind of cheesy and often regurgitate the same stuff over and over again, but this one is different to me. Check it out!

Best.
Yeah Blondie is on the James Clear train and I totally get it.
Yes, I really am. It's a hard train not to get on after you've read a few chapters and have seen first hand that it works. Of course the magic is, it doesn't "work" in one day, but over a lifetime of improvements and "voting" for the man you wish to be. I love that analogy he uses.

Keep killing it.

Best, Sir Brass Balls. :cool:

“When nothing seems to help, I go and look at a stonecutter hammering away at his rock, perhaps a hundred times without as much as a crack showing in it. Yet at the hundred and first blow it will split in two, and I know it was not that last blow that did it—but all that had gone before.”
― James Clear,
 
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Blondie

Respected Member
Day 338

I'm really starting to regret choosing that name :ROFLMAO:. It was a throwaway cause I never thought I'd go balls deep into rebooting.
You definitely shouldn't! It's a good one. And look at you now, you're completely balls deep into recovery.

Best brother.

Keep up the great work Blondie!
Thanks @Kraken. Same to you.

You all have a great porn-free weekend.
 

Blondie

Respected Member
This week I've been reflecting about this last year and started to look at some of my old posts right after I relapsed a year ago. I really liked what I wrote here right after I blew it. Sometimes when we're at our lowest, there's a rawness to our thoughts and feelings that is hard to recapture after being clean for a few months. It's good to reread what you've wrote and where you've come from so as not to forget where you're heading.

Let us never give up, even when it feels like all is lost.

Fuck porn.

Which way young man?

Which way young man?
I see you crying
I see you tarrying
I see you rationalizing

Which way young man?
You think going down is up
You think excuses is righteousness
You think defeat is noble

Which way young man?
I see your tears but not your anger
I see your fears but not your virtues
I see your shame but not your courage

There is no roundabout way to the summit
There is no valley that leads to paradise
There is nowhere else to go but up
There is only you and the mountain now
A stumble is but a step

Which way young man?
Only your fears hold you back now
Only your shame is your prophesied failure
Only your emotions is your weakest link

Which way young man?
You will laugh at your stumbles at the summit
You will rejoice that they guided you along the way
You will feel proud that you carved your own path

There is no roundabout way to the summit
There is no valley that leads to paradise
There is nowhere else to go but up
There is only you and the mountain now
A stumble is but a step

Which way young man?
A stumble is but a step
Which way?
Which way?
 

Blondie

Respected Member
Day 340!

Sometimes I just nip on here for a minute to catch up. I peep at the 30s forum. There you are, regular as clockwork. A fucking hero. Well done mam. Your one year anniversary isn’t far away.
I really can't wait @GBS, thank you!

It's funny how I'm still in the 30s section although I'm now 42. I'm too lazy to change it at this point. :cool:

Random thought:

Now that I'm on this maintenance caloric intake, it's interesting to see how I feel inside. I had been waiting for this time off for a good while, really anticipating it because I could "finally eat more!" However, now that I'm here, although it's nice that I have more energy for my workouts, I still find myself wanting more.:ROFLMAO:

It's in our human nature I suppose to always want more: more sex, more women, more porn, more food, more wine, and more song. And on and on the list goes.

You all have a great porn-free Monday, and remember, moderation in all things.
 
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