Yes this has really been a game changer for me. So much of my "porn issue" in the past was using it because I hated my life and what I hadn't accomplished. I knew deep down inside I was better than the man I was being, and knowing that made me run to things to "forget" about it.I think it really shows how a life perspective shift is needed, not just a habit change, and that the road to success is paved with near-misses and challenges.
That's awesome dude. Getting to the point where you're not obsessed with certain body parts & being more holistic as you say is a true sign of healing. Great stuff!Day 357
Had sex with the Lady yesterday and noticed something that I wanted to quickly share. This shouldn't be triggering, but just heads up in case.
I've always been a butt man (plus everything else lol) and I have no shame in saying so. The female shape of the butt is so divine it makes me even question my doubts of a higher form of existence. Who knows, maybe there is a god? But I digress. Needless to say, I've always been in love.
However, porn really made my love go to extremes and I definitely started to "fetishized" them in my porn viewing habits, honest truth, it was often my main viewing experience. However, I've noticed recently that this has really stopped for me, and for a while it was almost alarming lol. "My god" I would think to myself, "Have I become gay?". Naturally I was thinking this with a raging hard on. The addict mind will say insane shit while you're in recovery to get you to "test" yourself - just don't do it!
Nevertheless, yesterday, this voice was completely absent from my thoughts and I enjoyed everything about my girl without being obsessed with one body part. One could say it was a holistic sexual experience.
Now don't get me wrong, there is no greater angle than that view, but it feels more natural now, and not something I'm consciously consumed with.
Butt, that's all I have to say about that.
Have a great day everyone!
Also, fuck porn!
Indeed my man!Each one of us has its own thing
Beautiful prose Ezel, thanks! That made my day.It's reassuring that after awhile into the reboot we don't look at woman like just a body part, and we start to look at them as these beautiful human beings that they really are...
I can assure you that you have everything that I have to overcome this. I see it in your writing everyday.Even though I'm still far behind to get to that stage, but one day hopefully I will reach it like you did...