Yes, indeed! I think many people don't realize how long they loiter on the internet with no real purpose. If you think of it like a physical space, it's like wandering around a shopping mall, looking at all the store windows, but never going inside a store, never buying anything, standing in a corner of the food court watching people, then going home after 2-3 hours.Also, if you find yourself twiddling your thumbs today wasting you life looking at random articles on Wikipedia, get off your ass and go read a book or something
@Blondie thanks for the encouragement...I too have been at this for like 5 years since I first made the connection that porn and edging was the cause of my spiritual death. I figured porn was harmless and mo was natural. Not in the amounts I do it.Day 400
This is one of those times, when the number looks cooler than how I feel at the moment. Maybe next week I'll break down and cry about how great it all is, but today, I have many other things on my mind. I'm still trying to stay off the internet, which is good, but yesterday, I picked up a book I have no time for (history of Russia lol), and spent way too much time reading it. I think I'm trying to distract myself from things. Why do I do this? Anyway, here's to another day of not wasting my time.
@Leon: I see you're new here, welcome to the forum! Thanks for the encouragement brother. Trust me, everything I'm doing, you can do as well. I've been working at this for a long time, much longer than 400 days!
I just did a quick read on your thread and see you're (were) into "edging". This was my "love" as well. Just the sensation and the high it would bring was considerably better than actually getting off.From my quick read, most likely all those problems will go away if you quit looking at porn and masturbating/edging. How long this will take is individual to each of us, but, nature will find a way to heal itself.
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Best to you in quitting this nonsense. Trust me, the journey starts one day at a time.
@GBS: Thanks GBS, I have not heard of that series, but I did a quick look yesterday and it does seem interesting, I will definitely check it out. "Gripped by grace" that is a good phrase. I don't know if that's referring to God's grace or grace we should give to ourselves, but that is imperative for our recoveries. Thanks brother.
I hope you had a great Halloween!
This is so true. You try to have fun, but you can't, because you know you should be doing something else!The Dark playground is doing stuff to distract yourself which are actually not really fun as you have the bad feeling of having something more important to do.
My brother!!! Hell yeah, you are a goddamn legend. Yeah Day 400 doesn't have to be meaningful to you, you might find on Day 417 you go 'oh shit this is amazing'...doesn't matter as long as you are on THE PATHDay 400
This is one of those times, when the number looks cooler than how I feel at the moment. Maybe next week I'll break down and cry about how great it all is, but today, I have many other things on my mind. I'm still trying to stay off the internet, which is good, but yesterday, I picked up a book I have no time for (history of Russia lol), and spent way too much time reading it. I think I'm trying to distract myself from things. Why do I do this? Anyway, here's to another day of not wasting my time.
@Leon: I see you're new here, welcome to the forum! Thanks for the encouragement brother. Trust me, everything I'm doing, you can do as well. I've been working at this for a long time, much longer than 400 days!
I just did a quick read on your thread and see you're (were) into "edging". This was my "love" as well. Just the sensation and the high it would bring was considerably better than actually getting off.From my quick read, most likely all those problems will go away if you quit looking at porn and masturbating/edging. How long this will take is individual to each of us, but, nature will find a way to heal itself.
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Best to you in quitting this nonsense. Trust me, the journey starts one day at a time.
@GBS: Thanks GBS, I have not heard of that series, but I did a quick look yesterday and it does seem interesting, I will definitely check it out. "Gripped by grace" that is a good phrase. I don't know if that's referring to God's grace or grace we should give to ourselves, but that is imperative for our recoveries. Thanks brother.
I hope you had a great Halloween!
Day 403
Fuck porn!