Porn is not an option

Blondie

Respected Member
It's ironic that I had that slight temptation a few days ago, but then right afterwards, I've experienced a whole new level in my recovery. This thing is all cyclical in its nature, and just when you thought you've taken ten steps back, you find yourself suddenly a mile forward in new territory. The grass is greener. The air is crisper. The ladies are beautiful but not beautified.

The ocean ebbs and flows. The sun rises and sets. And just as sure as you know old Apollo will peek over that eastern morn everyday without failing, let us be sure our recoveries will as well.

We've spent our whole lifetimes waiting for this moment. So let us remember. When the clouds get dark and gloomy. When our souls our crashing against the rocks of defeat. And when the sun and the last autumn leaf has fallen. A new day will dawn. New tears will form. Yet these tears will be tears of glory and happiness, and not of pain and regret.

So let us head into the darkness of the mountains! Let us run towards our greatest shadows and fears! For where there are mountains there are lush valleys below. And where there are shadows there is morning light just beyond the horizon.



I'll be missing in action here at RN for few days or so. I have many projects to do and not nearly enough time in the day to do them. A break will be good for me. I think I'm addicted to this place :cool:. Just for something different in my routine, I won't even update me counter.

I love you all. Thanks for everything

Blondie
 
It's ironic that I had that slight temptation a few days ago, but then right afterwards, I've experienced a whole new level in my recovery. This thing is all cyclical in its nature, and just when you thought you've taken ten steps back, you find yourself suddenly a mile forward in new territory. The grass is greener. The air is crisper. The ladies are beautiful but not beautified.

The ocean ebbs and flows. The sun rises and sets. And just as sure as you know old Apollo will peek over that eastern morn everyday without failing, let us be sure our recoveries will as well.

We've spent our whole lifetimes waiting for this moment. So let us remember. When the clouds get dark and gloomy. When our souls our crashing against the rocks of defeat. And when the sun and the last autumn leaf has fallen. A new day will dawn. New tears will form. Yet these tears will be tears of glory and happiness, and not of pain and regret.

So let us head into the darkness of the mountains! Let us run towards our greatest shadows and fears! For where there are mountains there are lush valleys below. And where there are shadows there is morning light just beyond the horizon.



I'll be missing in action here at RN for few days or so. I have many projects to do and not nearly enough time in the day to do them. A break will be good for me. I think I'm addicted to this place :cool:. Just for something different in my routine, I won't even update me counter.

I love you all. Thanks for everything

Blondie
Take your time Blondie, this place is a tool for you to use at the cadence in which it makes sense for you. In some ways this has become more than just a recovery journal for me a little bit as well

Best of luck with your projects man!
 

Blondie

Respected Member
Day 414

I'm still here and kicking. :cool:

I got a shit load done over the weekend and I'm going to keep charging forward. I really appreciate all the support!

I was/I'm definitely addicted to the internet. These last few days have really shown that sad fact to me. I've had greater clarity of mind and my focus is considerable better. I got more done over the weekend than I have in weeks, so it's an eye opening lesson to be sure. I also turned off my phone, Facebook and everything else that was getting in the way, it was great! I'm going to keep this up for the time being.

I had a terrible dream last night that I relapsed. Then I spent hours tossing and turning wondering if it was actually true or not. Not a great way to start the day. Looks like my mind is still fighting this nonsense.

Best to you all.

Keep fighting the good fight brothers and sisters. I'll be over here preparing the noose for our little friend named Porn.

Blondie.

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Haha great GIF. Yeah the internet can be an addiction unto itself, I almost think though it's a question of what you're doing on the internet. For instance, porn is obviously out. Likewise social media is a killer as it's again giving you little spikes of dopamine but won't leave you fulfilled. So what is 'good' / 'acceptable'?

Learning. Reading books online. Watching workout videos. Etc. Something that is productive and making you a smarter / more capable person. And some TV / movies, nothing wrong with this in moderation as well. Just my two cents haha
 

Blondie

Respected Member
Day 418

Thank you @TryingHarder! Keep killing it brother.

Thank you @First_step_thousand_miles. I definitely agree with you. The internet can either be the greatest blessing or the greatest curse, depending on how one uses it. For myself, it was just becoming a gigantic time waste. I tried to cut it back in moderation, but that wasn't working, so I went cold turkey. It's also been good to see that I can stay on course while not checking back on here all day long. I figure when I get back to a semblance of normality, I can incorporate it back into my life in a more healthy way.

You all have a great porn-free weekend.

I'll be over here playing with my cat.

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GBS

Well-Known Member
Do we truly want to quit, or are we only pretending to?

Hmmmm…..422 days would be one hell of a pretence. I’ll go for answer (A) please. We truly want to quit.

Never stop. Not at 500, not at 1,000, not at 2,000, not at…..yeah, yeah, yeah, we get it Geebs!

Have a happy thanksgiving - I’m having tuna tomorrow because I live in the UK!
 
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