Day 357
Had sex with the Lady yesterday and noticed something that I wanted to quickly share. This shouldn't be triggering, but just heads up in case.
I've always been a butt man (plus everything else lol) and I have no shame in saying so. The female shape of the butt is so divine it makes me even question my doubts of a higher form of existence. Who knows, maybe there is a god? But I digress. Needless to say, I've always been in love.
However, porn really made my love go to extremes and I definitely started to "fetishized" them in my porn viewing habits, honest truth, it was often my main viewing experience. However, I've noticed recently that this has really stopped for me, and for a while it was almost alarming lol. "My god" I would think to myself, "Have I become gay?". Naturally I was thinking this with a raging hard on. The addict mind will say insane shit while you're in recovery to get you to "test" yourself - just don't do it!
Nevertheless, yesterday, this voice was completely absent from my thoughts and I enjoyed everything about my girl without being obsessed with one body part. One could say it was a holistic sexual experience.
Now don't get me wrong, there is no greater angle than that view, but it feels more natural now, and not something I'm consciously consumed with.
Butt, that's all I have to say about that.
Have a great day everyone!
Also, fuck porn!