It's now or never. I have to quit!

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Poliop

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I turned 24 last December and I can't believe I've still struggling with PMO at this age. It breaks my heart Everytime I think about it.

I saw my first piece of porn material when I was about 14 years old. It began as something I could control. Unfortunately as I continued watching, it has become an addiction.

So I've been on a journey to recovery since 2015. But I've had long periods of relapse. The longest I've gone without PMO was about 62 days from October 2020 to January 28 2021 and I relapsed due to the TikTok silhouette challenge.

I realize though that the only reason I cold stay off porn for that long was because of a routine I developed.
- Sleep by 10pm
- wake up by 5am
- work out
- watch motivation videos
- Work my ass off during the day

But all this stopped after the relapse and my it's been shit ever since..

Since then, I've had periods where I stay off it for a few weeks but then I relapse.
I've also noticed that whenever I'm stressed, a cascade of events just starts that leads me back into the cycle. This has lead me to loose interest in my daily activities, have periods of depression and miss school activities.

It's almost like I've trained my mind that no matter how hard I try, I'll always relapse...

This year, I have chosen to believe it's not true and this is a battle people have won in the past. So I'm commiting again to stop for good.

My plan
1. Document my progress here every day
2. Try to find more healthy ways to destress
3. Remind myself whenever there's an urge why I absolutely can not watch porn
4. Monitor my progress using an app I just downloaded (Quitzilla)

Hopefully this time, I'm one of the success stories

Wish me luck 🤞🏿
 
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Stiffy999

Active Member
Poliop said:
I turned 24 last December and I can't believe I've still struggling with PMO at this age. It breaks my heart Everytime I think about it.

I saw my first piece of porn material when I was about 14 years old. It began as something I could control. Unfortunately as I continued watching, it has become an addiction.

So I've been on a journey to recovery since 2015. But I've had long periods of relapse. The longest I've gone without PMO was about 62 days from October 2020 to January 28 2021 and I relapsed due to the TikTok silhouette challenge.

I realize though that the only reason I cold stay off porn for that long was because of a routine I developed.
- Sleep by 10pm
- wake up by 5am
- work out
- watch motivation videos
- Work my ass off during the day

But all this stopped after the relapse and my it's been shit ever since..

Since then, I've had periods where I stay off it for a few weeks but then I relapse.
I've also noticed that whenever I'm stressed, a cascade of events just starts that leads me back into the cycle. This has lead me to loose interest in my daily activities, have periods of depression and miss school activities.

It's almost like I've trained my mind that no matter how hard I try, I'll always relapse...

This year, I have chosen to believe it's not true and this is a battle people have won in the past. So I'm commiting again to stop for good.

My plan
1. Document my progress here every day
2. Try to find more healthy ways to destress
3. Remind myself whenever there's an urge why I absolutely can not watch porn
4. Monitor my progress using an app I just downloaded (Quitzilla)

Hopefully this time, I'm one of the success stories

Wish me luck 🤞🏿
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You need to find the source which triggers you to relapse.Let's face the facts here,99% of guys here including me of course,were/are very lazy guys who doesn't do almost anything productive whole day but rather lay in bed whole day hoping to get over addiction and eventually relapsing for years.Change habits,start working out again spend time outside house with friends and family,meet girls and don't lay in bed expecting shit to change and that your willpower can beat addiction,it 100% can not I assure you.Those 68 days is cool accomplishment but in 6,7 years it is very poor record of you ask me,so don't lean on your willpower it will always betray you rather change your focus!Wish you best of luck
 
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Blondie

Respected Member
You got this! Maybe throw out your computer. Do no social media. Stop all internet activities unless absolutely necessary (work, school etc.). Find a passion, change your job (if it's a shity one) and maybe start talking to girls. If you truly wish to quit, you'll do whatever it takes, even drastic measures, until you get through the initial 90 or so days. If you've done 60 something days, you can do it again! If you want something bad, you'll be willing to go to the ends of the earth to get it. Have you gone to the ends of the earth yet to accomplish this goal of quitting porn? If not, why not?
 
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Poliop

Member
Stiffy999 said:
You need to find the source which triggers you to relapse.Let's face the facts here,99% of guys here including me of course,were/are very lazy guys who doesn't do almost anything productive whole day but rather lay in bed whole day hoping to get over addiction and eventually relapsing for years.Change habits,start working out again spend time outside house with friends and family,meet girls and don't lay in bed expecting shit to change and that your willpower can beat addiction,it 100% can not I assure you.Those 68 days is cool accomplishment but in 6,7 years it is very poor record of you ask me,so don't lean on your willpower it will always betray you rather change your focus!Wish you best of luck
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Thanks man. I really appreciate this
 
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Poliop

Member
Blondie said:
You got this! Maybe throw out your computer. Do no social media. Stop all internet activities unless absolutely necessary (work, school etc.). Find a passion, change your job (if it's a shity one) and maybe start talking to girls. If you truly wish to quit, you'll do whatever it takes, even drastic measures, until you get through the initial 90 or so days. If you've done 60 something days, you can do it again! If you want something bad, you'll be willing to go to the ends of the earth to get it. Have you gone to the ends of the earth yet to accomplish this goal of quitting porn? If not, why not?
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Thanks man.
 
Fappy

Fappy

Respected Member
Seems like you’ve got a good strategy, and the motivation is there. You can see the vicious cycle porn throws you into, nothing is worth that, especially not a few seconds of pleasure while looking at pixels on a screen.
Having said that though, try not to get complacent. You might get confident in your progress and let your guard down, or your addiction will actually trick you into thinking you’re doing well just so you’ll relax things a little. DONT! This is just an invitation to the addiction to use some other covert trigger against you, and believe me things you never imagined to be triggers can suddenly become a trigger if you’re not careful. Just imagine that your addiction is constantly lying in wait and the second you give it a chance to attack it will relentlessly attack. It’s very smart and it’s very patient, so you need to outwit it.
In the early stages keeping busy is great. Once you get a handle on things and start seeing benefits you’ll be even more motivated
 
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Poliop

Member
Fappy said:
Seems like you’ve got a good strategy, and the motivation is there. You can see the vicious cycle porn throws you into, nothing is worth that, especially not a few seconds of pleasure while looking at pixels on a screen.
Having said that though, try not to get complacent. You might get confident in your progress and let your guard down, or your addiction will actually trick you into thinking you’re doing well just so you’ll relax things a little. DONT! This is just an invitation to the addiction to use some other covert trigger against you, and believe me things you never imagined to be triggers can suddenly become a trigger if you’re not careful. Just imagine that your addiction is constantly lying in wait and the second you give it a chance to attack it will relentlessly attack. It’s very smart and it’s very patient, so you need to outwit it.
In the early stages keeping busy is great. Once you get a handle on things and start seeing benefits you’ll be even more motivated
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You hit the nail on the head especially when you spoke about getting confident with my own progress. Thank you
 
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Poliop

Member
Day 2: I had almost zero motivation to do anything today, with some amount of anxiety and withdrawal symptoms. I tried to do some work but I really couldn't concentrate so I slept for a while. It's hard to be very honest but I have to do this for myself, family and Career.
I'm thinking of starting workouts tomorrow.

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Fappy

Fappy

Respected Member
Poliop said:
Day 2: I had almost zero motivation to do anything today, with some amount of anxiety and withdrawal symptoms. I tried to do some work but I really couldn't concentrate so I slept for a while. It's hard to be very honest but I have to do this for myself, family and Career.
I'm thinking of starting workouts tomorrow.

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The first week or so are when the withdrawals are at their most intense. Just keep busy and ride them out. Remember the withdrawal symptoms are a sign that you’re winning and your addiction is struggling
 
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Poliop

Member
Fappy said:
The first week or so are when the withdrawals are at their most intense. Just keep busy and ride them out. Remember the withdrawal symptoms are a sign that you’re winning and your addiction is struggl
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Fappy said:
The first week or so are when the withdrawals are at their most intense. Just keep busy and ride them out. Remember the withdrawal symptoms are a sign that you’re winning and your addiction is struggling
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Thank you, I really appreciate this words of encouragement.
 
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Poliop

Member
Day 3: So I worked out when I woke up. It wasn't easy but I did it. I felt very tired and lazy after the work out, but I did not give in. I took a shower and went through my school work. I went to church after. I tried socializing more and I had a lot less time with myself alone.

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Poliop

Member
Day 4: Still abstaining. I had a really busy day but I was turned for most of it. I'm glad I'm still on course
I woke up a bit late through and I was stressed and a but distablized. Usually that serves as a very good excuse to use porn to cool of buy I didn't let that get to me.

4 days free Screenshot_2022-01-11-00-14-56-47.jpg
 
Blondie

Blondie

Respected Member
You're killing it! I too felt a little stressed today starting the spring semester at school, but hey that's life. No one ever promised life wouldn't be stressful, but it amazes me how quickly I trained myself to run for that vacuous fruit whenever I feel the slightest tinge of stress. But then I remind myself (as I'm doing right now) that my stress levels would increase by 100% after I fucked up. It's never worth it.

Keep up the good work!
 
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Poliop

Member
So, update so far
I've abstained for 8 days so far and trying to hit the 10 day mark. But right now I can not sleep and the urge is driving me nuts. I'm literally having insomnia. Everything in my head is saying yes and if I watch porn now I can just restart this process and do better next time. But I really want to do better now and abstain. Hopefully once o drop my phone I'm still clean by tomorrow. So help me GodScreenshot_2022-01-15-03-01-31-64.jpg
 
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Poliop

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Update: so the day started well but ended awful. I hit the 9 day mark then relapsed.
Back to day 0
We move again 😔
 
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