im 35...im in the last few minutes of the game and want to give it my last shot!

hamilton8

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when people are addicted to porn i wonderif their brain is different becasue maybe my frontal lobbe is effected and also my primal brainis enhanced, becasue i fell like i run on prima instincts and my mind feels less calm.....when I abstain from porn, I have momens when i feel my brain literally is healing....this afternoon after work i had a nap and i literally felt when i woke my brain partially healed itself....this moment was a great feeling becasue it meant i was making progress.....a few nights ago i wok mid sleep and i was extremely horney with an erection. i abstained from touching myself and i was proud i go through that moment......i hear that some popel when addicted to porn find it hard to get morning woods- but i have never had that porblem before...touch wood.....i have had moments befreo when i feel like i stopped to dream.......actually coming to think of it i feel that i am dreaming lately and actually remembering it- i take this as a good sign.....anyway im day 18 no porn and i am rpoud. i got to 31 days last time and the nrelapsed, but now i am proud that i have got to 18 days and i am feeling good.....this is a long journey and i will continue to go on this journey.
 

hamilton8

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im feeling refreshed this morning- i wonder what my testosterone levels are since i am now day 18 no porn? it would be intersting to find out. but i feel mentally refreshed this morning
 

hamilton8

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i have started to do a squatt regime a couple of times a week to boost testosterone levels....i feel good today. im 21 days down and no porn...i almost feel like why did i ever want to watch it...but iknow that is a trap because there will be a moment in the future where my mind will trick me to say it is ok to watch porn...im ready for this moment, so im very reflective of my mind saying 'its ok- porn is no issue'---this is a trap i have fallen for many times before and i will continue to strive to not give in and continue to be refective and stay strong
 

hamilton8

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yesterday was day 26 no porn....what i want to improve on is being present.....this is becasue i have used escapism in my life to escape certain realities that i operate in...i am trying to be morepresent in my life- with focus. i want to remove the escapism aspect of my perception of the world....this includes being more emotionally invested in my work. being more emotionally invested ion my family and being more emotionally invested in my freinships...this drives connection whic his the opposite to addiciton.
 

hamilton8

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today is day 29 no porn.....i can feel a flatline...i can feel that i am not sexually feeling positive. i feel flat sexually- lots of periods of small penis, but i also feel like a-sexual like zero sexuality.........flatline is real and i take it as progress.
 

logicprox

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today is day 29 no porn.....i can feel a flatline...i can feel that i am not sexually feeling positive. i feel flat sexually- lots of periods of small penis, but i also feel like a-sexual like zero sexuality.........flatline is real and i take it as progress.
Yep, just progress. Killing it, dude.
 
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