rebootingyogi
Member
So I am back here after almost a month.
Shuttling between two cities has resulted in stress
And I am away from my wife
Guess what, I relapsed. Badly.
Did PMO 3 times in past two weeks, latest being yesterday
Today 10th March 2022 is the beginning of a new reboot cycle-Day 1
But what's the one change I have noticed over the years? It's that even if I relapse, I no longer feel guilt or self-pity. I don't abuse myself or talk myself down. I just pick up and get going for a new reboot.
I remember in 2013 when I first discovered that I am addicted. Back then, my reboot periods were short (max 10 days) and if I relapsed, I would binge watch porn (sometimes 4 hours at a stretch) every day for 2-3 days till I exhausted my sexual energy.
Past two years it's much better- when I relapse, it's only on one day and when I reboot, I am easily able to go 2 weeks plus. My longest was 60+ days during my final exams, which proved that given enough determination and opportunities to avoid porn, I am easily able to overcome my urges.
I have to keep up the good fight!
Shuttling between two cities has resulted in stress
And I am away from my wife
Guess what, I relapsed. Badly.
Did PMO 3 times in past two weeks, latest being yesterday
Today 10th March 2022 is the beginning of a new reboot cycle-Day 1
But what's the one change I have noticed over the years? It's that even if I relapse, I no longer feel guilt or self-pity. I don't abuse myself or talk myself down. I just pick up and get going for a new reboot.
I remember in 2013 when I first discovered that I am addicted. Back then, my reboot periods were short (max 10 days) and if I relapsed, I would binge watch porn (sometimes 4 hours at a stretch) every day for 2-3 days till I exhausted my sexual energy.
Past two years it's much better- when I relapse, it's only on one day and when I reboot, I am easily able to go 2 weeks plus. My longest was 60+ days during my final exams, which proved that given enough determination and opportunities to avoid porn, I am easily able to overcome my urges.
I have to keep up the good fight!