Yesterday I typed:
I think that a very important thing you said is forgive ourselves for past mistakes.
Personally, I find it very difficult to do so. I keep thinking of all the mistakes of the past and what I have most due to the whole situation. Even though I am aware that the past cannot change.
Thanks everyone for the replies. Yes, the past cannot change. I guess we can change our opinions of the past. For example, we can consider that, if we had known that watching P can lead to PIED, amongst other highly undesirable symptoms, would we have continued watching? Why does P even exist really, especially all the free online P out there which can so easily be viewed by children? It's not just our problem, it's society's problem in my opinion. But anyway, moving on with this Real New Year which has just begun!
Unfortunately my sleep quality wasn't great at all last night. It would have been better if I hadn't reset yesterday, I bet.. On the bright side, today I made progress on something that has been causing me anxiety. I also had some pleasant interactions with people today, mostly strangers. So although I'm a bit sleep-deprived, I'm feeling pretty good.
For me it's not just about avoiding P, but also about avoiding online chat (such as "adult" chat rooms), and P-subs (especially deliberately seeking out P-subs, such as images of fully clothed women). So I need to avoid that unholy trinity! If I indulge in one, I get cravings for the other two, as well as cravings for M of course.
Today I'm typing:
Yeah I had some technical trouble yesterday but fortunately the message got saved. Well I slept much better yesterday and generally today was pretty good, although I felt some anger at times. Managed to keep it to myself mostly, apart from uttering some random things out loud, but directed at no one in particular. Angry at some past nonsense basically, but hey, it's the Real New Year! lol
My tip for today is be careful what you read, even on these kinds of forums! People can say some triggering some stuff. But if you walk away and distract yourself with better things, you'll be fine.