My partner says he has a porn addiction, we have been together for almost a year and a half and he has never been able to come during sex. Sex doesn't even seem to be actually enjoyable at all to him, he tends to say his arms hurt or his back after only 10 minutes or so and then he lays back and masterbates with his eyes closed for sometimes up to 50mins or more. Before sex there is no foreplay, he just lays there and expects me to get him hard after telling me he is randy (and that's getting rarer and rarer). I feel unwanted, unloved, used, ugly and betrayed. Last night I asked him about his porn use and he actually smiled about the fact he is still looking at pictures, he doesn't see an issue as its not videos anymore....
I don't need other people to get me off....
I'm wondering what the point is anymore, I've never felt this unattractive and repulsive before.
I just don't understand why he can't empathise at all. Its like its a joke to him and it makes me want to curl in a ball and die.
He is supposed to be moving in soon but if I can't satisfy him, I'm never going to be able to... Will he find satisfaction elsewhere, like he is now but just in real life? I already feel mentally cheated on, it would kill me if he did physically.
I don't need other people to get me off....
I'm wondering what the point is anymore, I've never felt this unattractive and repulsive before.
I just don't understand why he can't empathise at all. Its like its a joke to him and it makes me want to curl in a ball and die.
He is supposed to be moving in soon but if I can't satisfy him, I'm never going to be able to... Will he find satisfaction elsewhere, like he is now but just in real life? I already feel mentally cheated on, it would kill me if he did physically.