24year old guy with PIED

Honey98$

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I've been masturbating since the age of 14, continued doing it till the age of 22 but one thing to mention is i was fapping to fantasy and imagination. I had 3 girlfriends in the past and had some very successful sexual encounters. After the age of 22 I started watching porn and i must say i was the fan of novelty, so everyday i would consume alot of time to find the video i wanted to fap to. As a result, this search of novelty brought me pied in a very short time let's say in 1.5 years. Keep in mind guys it's not about years or months, its about novelty you seek. It can destroy your brain in even 6 months (saying from experience). I'm not including any triggers here.

I came to know about my pied slowly with the time. My desire for sex was lessening everyday and the the hottest girls/women were no longer hottest to me. I had a hard time getting my little man up( it took a lot of effort to get it up). If i managed to get it hard and had sex, then it would never be ready for the second round. My penis was not responding to her touches even.

I went to a local doctor, he advised me to take small doses of cialis, slidenafil, as he concluded that the problem is with the blood flow to genitals. These pills didn't work. I went further to a urologist for checkup and he prescribed me some tests such as thyroid, cbc,lipid profile, LFT etcetera. I tell you flatly, it looked rubbish to me as i got those tests done before. I thought involuntarily, this urologist is a fuckin idiot, he can't solve my problem. I came out of the hospital, threw my consultation file in the drain outside and came back home. Upon coming home, i desperately started searching over the internet saying " i have zero libido/ my sexual desire is gone". There were some videos on youtube suggesting that stress/depression can be the reason for that but i knew i had no stress/depression.

I was diving deeper and deeper into the pool of internet for the solution. I started relating myself with the results that appeared. Some said diabetes can be the reason of this suppressed libido, so i thought i had sugar/diabetes for a moment, then denied it the other moment.

Now i was searching and searching until i found a video on YouTube under the channel "covenant eyes". The title was "WARNING: porn causes erectile dysfunction" ( you can't forget something that had have a huge impact on your life, so i remember the channel name and video title very precisely). This drew my attention so quickly. Wait a minute! What is this? I watched the full video and all what the guy said was so relatable. I got a glimpse of the cause from here, however i was not sure 100% that this is the actual reason behind this torment. I searched about pied and i saw there were a lot of men suffering from it. I saw reboot nation youtube channel, i watched gabe deems videos and yes it was pied. I confessed now truly.

I started my reboot and i have never watched porn ever since. I never have urges to go back watch porn or the porn flashbacks. I'm free at home everyday and we are 2 members in our family me and my dad. My dad is out for work in the daytime and i have access to the high speed internet. Thus, even god can't make me watch porn lol. My future is more appealing than porn. Once im done, im done!!
!!!PERIOD!!!


it's been more than 2 months since i started reboot. I was not journaling here but i wrote it down in notes in my phone. So I'm sharing my timeline here today
 

Honey98$

Member
I started my pied journey on 8th november
Days 1-29 :- i didn't relapse though i was getting hard by seeing instagram models and stuff. Getting turned on by erotic thoughts
30- i got a wetdream.

Day 31-57 - getting erections by erotic thoughts, social media triggers. 70% when happens. No MW at all
Day 58-61:- trouble falling asleep, so much brainfog
Day 62- i was taking shower today and i thought of giving massage to the little man using oil. I did it, (remember just massage no orgasm) and i got flatline afterwards (remember its not only orgasm that releases dopamine, the pusuit of pleasure is also involved in releasing dopamine) . Before i was able to get it up by erotic thoughts and instagram photos but now it feels totally dead. Seems like all the progress is gone. I have to say this flatline is relentless as im unable to get it up even with things that worked before. Severe flatline i must say

Day64- today i had a wetdream in the early morning while i was asleep. Flatline continues!

I'm avoiding to mention the days that were same or i had no progress
 

Blondie

Active Member
It seems you're doing well. and since you dick is not working, that's even a better sign your brain is healing itself. I know it can suck, having you very masculine essence not working, but trust me, he'll be fixed in no time. For the love of god, just don't look at porn. Further, try to stay away from touching or testing him too much, doing this just isn't good for your mental health, and it could cause a relapse.

Trust the process and be set free!
 

Honey98$

Member
It seems you're doing well. and since you dick is not working, that's even a better sign your brain is healing itself. I know it can suck, having you very masculine essence not working, but trust me, he'll be fixed in no time. For the love of god, just don't look at porn. Further, try to stay away from touching or testing him too much, doing this just isn't good for your mental health, and it could cause a relapse.

Trust the process and be set free!
Thanks for your kind words! Mother nature bless you
 

H&M

Member
Days 1-29 :- i didn't relapse though i was getting hard by seeing instagram models and stuff. Getting turned on by erotic thoughts



In my opinion you are not leaving sexual content on screens. You keep doing the same thing. Count back from zero again.
 

Blondie

Active Member
In my opinion you are not leaving sexual content on screens. You keep doing the same thing. Count back from zero again.
Yeah, I just reread what you posted, I didn't catch that H&M. Yes, Instagram photos (although not officially "porn"), probably give you half the dopamine rush as porn does, especially if touching your dick at the same time; thus, still enforcing those same neuropathways. The brain doesn't know what's officially porn or not (only we make that distinction), it just knows it likes what it sees, and gives you that high feeling. I wouldn't say you have to start your counter back at zero (unless it really was porn), but I would definitely cut out all of that extra social media. Besides, what does Instagram have that could possibly compare to a real live girl in your arms? Remember, we are rewiring our brains to seek reality not fantasy, truth and beauty and not pixels.
 

H&M

Member
The Normal consumption of porn does not translate into relevant effects, there are even couples who watch it together and find it stimulating”. On the other hand, when it comes to addiction, patients cannot connect emotionally with others and "avoid sexual relations because they often present sexual impotence mediated by brain mechanisms."
 

H&M

Member
It is not very clear from an objective point of view when it can be determined that the viewing of sexual content is excessive and it would be necessary to assess each case. For this, it would be necessary to “take into account not only the quantitative factor (for example, the amount of time an individual spends viewing pornographic material) but also the qualitative consequences (how they feel before, during and after consumption, what other things leave to do because you are consuming pornography and how what you see affects your relationships, your mood...)”.

It is a repetitive habit, which often occupies an amount of time that the individual interprets as excessive, with a certain inability to interrupt the behavior, with some interference in the attention to other responsibilities and occupations and that generates more psychological discomfort than pleasure” . In my opinion, in these cases there is a circumstance that needs to be explored in order to assess what situation is required, without forgetting that sometimes it is the person himself who makes a value judgment about his sexual conduct when experiencing feelings of guilt: “This leads them to claim they are addicted to porn, or watch too much porn, or spend too much time watching it or looking for a sexual encounter on apps. It may be so and there may be a problem or it may be a distortion of the person.
 

Honey98$

Member
In my opinion you are not leaving sexual content on screens. You keep doing the same thing. Count back from zero again.
Right now im not using any social media. One thing to mention, i never touched my penis while seeing anything sexual nor i saw something that can be described as being sexual. Its mostly the non-human photos with erotic thoughts written in them, that turn me on. I'm turned on, when i read something erotic.
 
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Honey98$

Member
Day 67 :- relentless flatline continues and i still have trouble falling asleep that started around day 58. I have started exercising. Today i went to gym, read some remaining last pages of dostoevsky's brilliant novel "crime and punishment". Spent time with my friends and worked on my college assignments. Remember, the days I'm not mentioning had nothing interesting happened in them
 
You are on the right track. You have identified the problem and developed methods to combat it. I recommend you don't give your weak self options like Instagram.
 

Honey98$

Member
Day 69:- yes 69 lolzz.. my online class starts from tomorrow not today. So i went to a marriage party in daytime, there were some pretty girls. I felt a strong desire to talk to one, so i did it but my brain seemed not at all interested in doing so. She was so calm and interesting but my brain is not yet wired to respond to real women at the moment. Yesterday women/ girls looked attractive and today they didn't. Thus, a little improvement appears and disappears. This process is not linear if you feel changes and then lose them sometime later, it's not that you are not improving. This rebooting process is like that. It is what it is !!!!!
 

zackergeet

Active Member
Hey @Honey98$ you are doing it great, it is normal to feel like that. I have been there in your position, with ups and downs. When you feel you are going to normal mode, once again you feel down. But the longer the days without PMO the more the ups than the downs. Keep it going my friend!
 

Blondie

Active Member
Yesterday women/ girls looked attractive and today they didn't. Thus, a little improvement appears and disappears.

This is good news, your brain is fixing itself. Of course you alreadly knew that! Keep it up.
 

Honey98$

Member
Hey @Honey98$ you are doing it great, it is normal to feel like that. I have been there in your position, with ups and downs. When you feel you are going to normal mode, once again you feel down. But the longer the days without PMO the more the ups than the downs. Keep it going my friend!
Thanks for checking my thread out bro!
I've just started loving my flatlines recently, because they make me realize my mistake and keep reminding me of it when i look down at my penis that It is me who brought them. I believe they are a great sign of improvement if i look at stories such as @casenova's .
Yesterday women/ girls looked attractive and today they didn't. Thus, a little improvement appears and disappears.

This is good news, your brain is fixing itself. Of course you alreadly knew that! Keep it up.
Yeah bro! Information that i collected from here and there during this reboot, is proving helpful. Threads here are so useful and brothers like you keeping an eye on my thread are a blessing.
 
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