So, when I was a kid I was addicted to porn for a long period of time. Then, what I thought was a spiritual practice, allowed me to create discipline in my life. I went a couple of years without watching porn. As I have gotten older I have entered back into the lifestyle and have interests in different fetishes. I think my upbringing creates a lot of guilt in me even though I do not believe it anymore. My girlfriend and I have a great relationship but I want to rid of this of my life. I live a couple of hours from her and see her on the weekends due to work and school. It becomes very challenging at times.