24 days in and emotionally distraught

[reboot_8716]

Hey how’s this going? Still feeling anxious, angry and depressed?

Hey thanks for asking. Ups and downs I would say. I’ve actually had a killer headache the last day which I’m not sure is related to rebooting or not. I’m feeling less anxious but just as depressed, and irritability seems to come and go. If I think about where my intimacy is at in my relationship I still get angry. And I think it’s a combination of craving sex a lot (which is likely influenced by porn addiction) and then being frustrated that we’re not actually having any intimacy.

despite all of that I feel very committed to continuing to avoid porn for good, and masturbation and orgasm as well at least for a while. I don’t know when I’ll want to try M or Intomacu with my spouse again but I know it’s not yet, even If a part of me wants it.

 

[Tryinghere]

Hey thanks for asking. Ups and downs I would say. I’ve actually had a killer headache the last day which I’m not sure is related to rebooting or not. I’m feeling less anxious but just as depressed, and irritability seems to come and go. If I think about where my intimacy is at in my relationship I still get angry. And I think it’s a combination of craving sex a lot (which is likely influenced by porn addiction) and then being frustrated that we’re not actually having any intimacy.

despite all of that I feel very committed to continuing to avoid porn for good, and masturbation and orgasm as well at least for a while. I don’t know when I’ll want to try M or Intomacu with my spouse again but I know it’s not yet, even If a part of me wants it.

Dude. You’re right on. Isn’t that a strange feeling. Craving sex, being pissed that you aren’t getting it, while at the same time anxious about it and trying to avoid it. Hard to not be irritable like that