Im a male 27 years old I had started to watch porn and masturbate since I was 13 years old and I developed an addiction very quickly I was mastrubating one to two to three times a day with porn or without it I always felt the impulse to mastrubate because it made me feel good, I never thought it would come a day when I would stop but thank God it came, it's been four months and I haven't watch a single pornographic picture or video although my addiction drove me nuts and I found myself started to gravitate more towards Instagram to look at pictures of hot models dressing in bikinis and I would get aroused and almost got to a point where I would become so close to touch myself down there but I got angry and I stopped looking at those arousing pictures displayed on Instagram or anywhere else, at 21 years old my addiction started to go to another level I would spend more than 2 hours a day on pornographic sites that later on would extand to 6 hours, sometimes I felt my brain was on fire and I would get headaches from all that extensive watching, I became extremely paranoid and psychotic and the only thing that gave me pleasure was edging on porn, I stopped caring about my family and my friends my personality changed I was a very selfish person showing no emotions at all I had no empathy that all changed once I start the rebooting, I would start to cry for no reason and get very emotional and I hope that someone would give me a hug or a touch me, I started to communicate a lot with my family and I admit everything to my mom while crying I was throwing up constantly for multiple days like a junkie I was feeling cold at summer time covering myself with winter blanket, my family thought I was going crazy I felt I was going crazy, I was feeling my brain electrifying and changing I was feeling pain in my stomach and my back, I felt so shameful and guilty to the pain I caused to my self and my family, I got to a point where I had no friends I was locked in my room couldn't go out, I still believe I hadn't recovered yet since I had did so much damage to my brain and my psyche I read that it takes 2 years for the dopamine receptors to go back to function normally, one time I almost died from a stroke cause I mastrubate to much like 5 times a day and I got a severe headache and once I drink the medince and got to sleep I felt my heart beating so fast and my family rushed me to the hospital and my heart beat was 190 beat per second and I was hallucinating seeing the devil and angles I thought I was going to die, to this day I have trouble concentrating and trouble with memory I had never been addicted to anything besides porn and beating my meat
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